Zurdoknoc Wrote:He is the type of person that never forgives and forgets. He remembers and gets bitter and mad when he talks about things his exes did to him.
....and now you're one of his exes. And if he's the type who won't accept an apology over something you said, prepare to become a punching bag.
What on earth did you say to him that he finds so unforgivable? Did you put a voodoo curse on him or something? And I'm not sure there's such a thing as a "wrong" thing to say during an argument. Arguments are by nature a sort of "anything goes" situation. We say stupid or hurtful things out of anger. If you said something vicious and mean right out of the blue at the breakfast table one morning, that might need some explaining. But for God's sake, it was an argument. There are few rules in arguments. I can see him holding a grudge over something you did, but he needs to forgive you if all you did was run your mouth.
He sounds a little old to be so angry and vindictive. Plus he's mourning his brother's death. It's not going to get any easier for you.
Like I said, I was in a similar situation. Staying was easy because I wanted him back. I figured there might be a better chance of that if I was still around. Plus, staying made me feel secure. If I was to move out, it would have been like finalizing the breakup and I wasn't ready to do that.
I really suggest you think about leaving. Get your own place where you don't have to hide out in your own home. The longer you stay in this situation, the longer it will eat at you, and it will take longer for you to get back on your feet emotionally when it finally all ends for good, which it eventually will.
I know that sounds hard, but I have little doubt that it's the best thing for you. You have to be true to yourself and move on with your life.