Hello matey,
Noticed you havent been online... I hope your feeling better soon and everything is going alright for yas... When i was in depression i thought to myself i can only go so low before i suddenly come back up again... Bear this thought in mind as it gives hope to there being a sudden uplift from within
big hugz
zeon x
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People, whether friends or not, can be feral, specially in a gang. Sometimes it's best just to walk away and let things cool down. Under the circumstances you describe there is no way to win. What is it you think you are hoping for when you are looking for support? It takes a strong person to stand up to a pack leader and his closest acolytes and, in my experience, that kind of person is pretty rare. Why do you think any of these guys will risk their status in the group for you? We often deal with difficult stuff by making something funny out of it. Most males seem to prefer not to have to address issues to do with their feelings in any serious way. The humour often masks the frustration and anxiety surrounding being unable to offer you any meaningful support. Once the jokes start everyone can pile in and the real issue is neatly avoided. I don't think they are laughing at you being unhappy. It seems more likely that they are masking their inability to help you by laughing. It really is different. If there happened to be a single friend you could confide in confidentially ...?
The one who is worried about his bum sounds very immature. Maybe this group has served its purpose in your life and it's time to cultivate pastures new.
If your mum is unable to see how unhappy all this is making you I am very sorry. None of my kids have been, or will ever be, too old to get a hug from me when I didn't have the words to help sort things out (and they are in their 20s and 30s now). Sometimes they are far away (like thousands of miles) and the best I can offer is a listening ear.
You will get through this, djsims2. I hope it is sooner rather than later, but you will get through this and will come out a little stronger I am sure.
Best wishes
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