Can I ask for some nonjudgemental advice please?

[Cheet0V90]

Hey all, I am a guy who is questioning my orientation at the moment, after having recieved a couple of incomplete, traded off BJ's with another guy. (no cum changed hands orally, however we sucked each other hard, and finished each other off by hand around 2ish years ago, and around about a year ago I was going to do the sa,e thing again w another guy, and I just couldn't... Happened to be moving out of dorms next day, and didnt want to have parents find cum stains anywhere... After denying myself the oppertunity, plus the time since I semi miss the feeling of penis intraorally, and I really don't know what to do at this point, bc as of late, gay porn gets me going faster than straight or even the old standby of lesbian porn... Another thing is thar I never had chance to have a real "straight" relationship either, as growing up I was a bit of a strange fellow... More on that later if any interest..?

The issue here starts with the fact that my family has Ø idea that has happened, nor do I want them to know, as would complicate an already weird relationship btw them and I... I am post college still living w them, as well I am still finding my place in the realm of a career, as well my little bro moved out a monthish ago, somehow finding a career straight out of college, so now pretty much all attention now is being paid to me finding a job...

Just really am lost now as far as anything goes on the relationship or the sex front... Can someone here help guide me in a direction please, or at least talk me down/through these feelings that I am feeling please..?

[knickerbuck]

all i can say is that sexuality is a fluid thing you need to explore that if you want to be certain of it ..

[TigerLover]

all i can say is that sexuality is a fluid thing that you need to explore if you want to be certain of it ..

Yep that's pretty much it.
All i would add is that maybe you should wait for a less tumultuous time in your life to go exploring it.

[CorsacReborn]

From what you say about your relationship with your family I do think for now it might be wise just to ease back on the questioning who you are too much and concentrate on the important fact of getting yourself into a career that could net you being able to afford your own place in the near future.

I wouldn't worry about your "weirdness" either, we all have things that other people think are weird.

[Cuddly]

This is something that only you can work on. We can tell you stories and make assumptions, but ultimately your feelings are your own.

If what you feel is a craving for dick or pussy, or both, then that's your thing. While your sexlife is none of anybody's business, I believe most people find a lot of happiness in sharing their intimate lives with others. What's the use of a girl- or boyfriend if you can't show them off? Take them to restaurants or movies? Bring them home for christmas?... But that's a topic for another time.

What you need, is to figure out what you want. What you truely want. There's nothing wrong with being gay, bisexual or straight. It just is what it is and both you and your surroundings should accept that simple fact. In the meantime, while you're unsure, do whatever you want. You can have discreet No-Strings-Attached gaysex if that's what you want.
These things will be easier to deal with as an independant man, living in your own place off your own salary. That's not to say you can't have sex while looking for a job, one does not rule out the other.

I hope you figure it out and would like to hear more about your growing up as a strange fellow.

[Cheet0V90]

From what you say about your relationship with your family I do think for now it might be wise just to ease back on the questioning who you are too much and concentrate on the important fact of getting yourself into a career that could net you being able to afford your own place in the near future.

I wouldn't worry about your "weirdness" either, we all have things that other people think are weird.

My "weirdness" more has to do with a disability that I have. My leg muscles, from my quads downward are under an inexplicable amount of muscle tone. Doctors have no clue either, amd now I use a wheelchair to get around our home, and use a mobility scooter to get around on my own. Otherwise I am on arm crutches to help me keep my balance. I just fear that those factors (chair/scooter/crutches, etc) will chase people away, as more women havr seemingly ignored me in the past... See my worry? (IK that I shouldn't worry about that shit, just is hard...)

[artyboy]

Hmmm I'm disabled fella. I don't class myself as weird. Bit odd at times but that hasn't got anything to do with me being disabled lol.