05-10-2009, 08:24 PM
So i've never really thought i was gay untill about a year ago. I've know this girl who is gay for just over a year now. Shes gay. I work with her. I knew pretty much from the start that she fancied me.
I left the work last summer to go home to work full time. During the summer I couldn't stop thinking about her and this is what made me start to think i was gay.
Earlier this year i stayed at hers one night after work. We slept in the same bed and one thing led to another and we got intimate. Nothing really happened, would call it more of a romp than sex but according to her we slept together.
Here's where it gets complicated. Theres another girl in her life. According to her they're not together. They can both sleep with whoever they like. Like an open relationship. As far as i'm aware they sleep together and spend alot of spare time together. When this other girl comes into the work i get "daggers" from her, she obviously has a problem with me. She knows what happened between us and she wasn't too happy about it. Even though they can sleep with whoeve they want. A mutual friend of mines and the girl i slept with says that shes jelouse as her "bird" as he put it, fancies me.
I made it clear to this girl that i fancy her n would like to do it again sometime but it seems since i've came out to her her flirting has died down. She says she just wants to be friends. I believe this to be due to the other girl in her life. They are good friends.
No one else knows about me being gay apart from my best friend who lives in another city. The girl i slept with says she knew right away i was gay and if i were to cme out to the rest of my friends they wouldn't be shocked. I think they would though. One of them in particular is homophobic.
The girl i slept with says shes going to take me to a gay club, but I don't think her other girl will be all to happy about that. I don't know how to act. I think about her all the time and just want to be in her company but she doesnt feel the same way. If the other girl wasnt on the scene it would be a totally different story.
Yes i want to be out but like most people i'm scared of losing friends. I can't count on becming part of this girls friend group seen as how her other friend doesn't really like me... even though we've never spoke.
Any advice?
I left the work last summer to go home to work full time. During the summer I couldn't stop thinking about her and this is what made me start to think i was gay.
Earlier this year i stayed at hers one night after work. We slept in the same bed and one thing led to another and we got intimate. Nothing really happened, would call it more of a romp than sex but according to her we slept together.
Here's where it gets complicated. Theres another girl in her life. According to her they're not together. They can both sleep with whoever they like. Like an open relationship. As far as i'm aware they sleep together and spend alot of spare time together. When this other girl comes into the work i get "daggers" from her, she obviously has a problem with me. She knows what happened between us and she wasn't too happy about it. Even though they can sleep with whoeve they want. A mutual friend of mines and the girl i slept with says that shes jelouse as her "bird" as he put it, fancies me.
I made it clear to this girl that i fancy her n would like to do it again sometime but it seems since i've came out to her her flirting has died down. She says she just wants to be friends. I believe this to be due to the other girl in her life. They are good friends.
No one else knows about me being gay apart from my best friend who lives in another city. The girl i slept with says she knew right away i was gay and if i were to cme out to the rest of my friends they wouldn't be shocked. I think they would though. One of them in particular is homophobic.
The girl i slept with says shes going to take me to a gay club, but I don't think her other girl will be all to happy about that. I don't know how to act. I think about her all the time and just want to be in her company but she doesnt feel the same way. If the other girl wasnt on the scene it would be a totally different story.
Yes i want to be out but like most people i'm scared of losing friends. I can't count on becming part of this girls friend group seen as how her other friend doesn't really like me... even though we've never spoke.
Any advice?