Going back in

[Amigo]

I'm going back in.

I'll just be 'out' to myself, and to you guys, but nobody else.

It's tough... being me.

The world is a cruel place, with dark clouds and mirky sea.

Anyway...

I never expected anyone to understand me anyway.

I know what I know, and I am who I am.

I don't need other people to tell me what I am or who I am.

And I don't need to tell others what I am or who I am.

I just...

Live my life, and that's the way it goes.

Ah crap.

Make it all go away.

Death never seemed so sweet.

Die while I'm still breathing.

Die while I'm still alive.

Die. Die. Die...

[Kiid]

No Die!!!
I'd miss your posts anyway.
And you give good advice and you need to think positively.You there it good in the world you just got to look hard dude. Be happy!

[Amigo]

I'm not seriously going to die.

Just... metaphorically....

[Kiid]

well be happy or i'll make yah =]
but its ok to go back in be true to your self and us if you like.

[Amigo]

I thought if I was gay, it would explain a lot of things... such as why I am the way I am.

And I thought if I was gay, I would be free to feel things the way I naturally wanted to feel.

And I thought if I was gay, I would be allowed to think the way I wanted to think. Not the way I was taught or trained to think.

But most importantly, I thought if I was gay, my life would be gay.

However,

I'm afraid if I was gay, nobody would understand me.

[Kiid]

as long as you understand yourself. Thats key.

[Amigo]

Kabooom~~~ !!!

Shot down even before take off...

[fjp999]

[COLOR="Purple"] Hey, friend, what ya talking about?

It is a new age!!! Fuck, we in 2010 NOW

Youre GAY. Youre YOU. Everyone accepts who you are or they AINT

***you got a wife and kids and they seem to be cool with YOU. At least you been discussing gayness with your wife a bit. You cant go back on that. She cool. You should be cool with it too. Dont mean you gotta start sucking dick at the local bus stop but you be the gay for YOU in 2010.

Ya dont really have to make any decisions about being gay and being you. Just be open to the moment and dont put any pressures on yourself cause that aint cool.

Today, in 2010, lets celebrate the YOU and forget the labels. OK?[/COLOR]

[Amigo]

Thanks Frank.

Forgot about the essence of being gay for a while there.

Actually, my wife says she doesn't want a gay-ish husband, which I totally understand.

[kotorkid95]

I thought if I was gay, it would explain a lot of things... such as why I am the way I am.

And I thought if I was gay, I would be free to feel things the way I naturally wanted to feel.

And I thought if I was gay, I would be allowed to think the way I wanted to think. Not the way I was taught or trained to think.

But most importantly, I thought if I was gay, my life would be gay.

However,

I'm afraid if I was gay, nobody would understand me.

Crap, thats me. I don't wanna be gay, but i can't control it! Im a Christian, dangit! But im on this site? I don't know why, but i am. I hope you figure it all out, cus i sure can't