Confused. Need HELP

[drewnyc7]

Hello, my name is Andrew. 29 yo from nyc. All my life I have been straight. For the past couple of years after a horrible break up with my ex girlfriend, the curiousity started after she started rimming me while we where having sex. We broke up months later. one day i decided to check out gay porn. I went nuts. So for 3 yrs now ive started from gay porn, to chatting, to phone sex, to hardcore porn, fingering myself. I love gay porn, bareback sex clips, cum clips. fantasize about cock day and night. I have tried to get help from friends but they say im confused straight or curious and that this is nothing. One day i was at museum, there was this gay worker showing me greek marbles, kept checking me out. I got a raging hard on. It felt wierd, i got precum in seconds. That never happened before. So since then Ive had phone sex, fantasize and jerk off everyday to gay porn. I dont know what to do. PLEASE HELP ME

[colinmackay]

I'd say you are gay (or at least bi if you still find women attractive).

As to what to do about that? Well, what do you want to do about it? When I came out the friend I came out to did a rather good job of showing me that I already knew what I wanted to do, I just needed a little guidance on how might be best to proceed.

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[Genersis]

The question is do you seek a relationship with other men, or are you only intrested in the sex?
The definition of gay is still debated over. I personaly wouldn't say your gay if you are just intrested in the sex, i would say you're sexualy Bi but emotionally straight.

*sigh* sexuality can be so complicated......

[Amigo]

Hello, my name is Andrew. 29 yo from nyc. All my life I have been straight. For the past couple of years after a horrible break up with my ex girlfriend, the curiousity started after she started rimming me while we where having sex. We broke up months later. one day i decided to check out gay porn. I went nuts. So for 3 yrs now ive started from gay porn, to chatting, to phone sex, to hardcore porn, fingering myself. I love gay porn, bareback sex clips, cum clips. fantasize about cock day and night. I have tried to get help from friends but they say im confused straight or curious and that this is nothing. One day i was at museum, there was this gay worker showing me greek marbles, kept checking me out. I got a raging hard on. It felt wierd, i got precum in seconds. That never happened before. So since then Ive had phone sex, fantasize and jerk off everyday to gay porn. I dont know what to do. PLEASE HELP ME

Be brave and take the next step.

Pick up that phone and call for help. I'm sure there're many male escorts in New York...

[Amigo]

I mean that's what I would do if I were you.

If I had the chance to find out if I'm gay or not by trying to have sex with a guy, I'd do it.

Then I'd know for sure, where I stand in the sex spectrum.

[marshlander]

It sounds like you are already doing what you want to do! Have you thought about meeting someone and getting to know them too? Phone sex and wanking off to porn is only an indication that you can find men a turn on. With a bit of luck and a following wind you may discover some of the joys to be had in the real world too.

Good luck.

[colinmackay]

Pick up that phone and call for help. I'm sure there're many male escorts in New York...

I'm sure there are... But I'm not exactly sure that's the right sort of help.

[drewnyc7]

Hello and thanx for your reply. Idk anymore. Im so confused. It all started 8yrs ago, I was watching gay porn on my cousins computer, first time ever. I remember how hot and crazy horny I got. It was an accident. I stumbled on it by mistake on the categories, so I was curious. And I got this feeling unlike anything ever. But it passed eventually until one day I had these gay customers at work, one of them called me cute and kept checking out my crotch. Again I felt fired up. But then I got a gf for 2 yrs until one day she started to rim me, I was in ecstasy and she fingered me. From that day on I started to watch Gay porn, and ever since I keep moving up the ladder from porn, to chat, to phone sex. And now I have come close to hooking up with any guy just cause I want it so bad. Many ppl just tell me its a phase ill get over and not to experiment and that i am not gay, just confused. Is it possible I may have been always Gay? Why do I want it so badly? I mean just the word turns me on. Is this normal? Even when I get bananas I act like Im sucking cock. Is this straight behavior? Normal? Thanx soooo much for your advice!!

[drewnyc7]

I'd say you are gay (or at least bi if you still find women attractive).

As to what to do about that? Well, what do you want to do about it? When I came out the friend I came out to did a rather good job of showing me that I already knew what I wanted to do, I just needed a little guidance on how might be best to proceed.

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please message me anytime if you would like. thaaanx for advice

[colinmackay]

...Many people just tell me its a phase I'll get over and not to experiment and that I am not gay, just confused. Is it possible I may have been always Gay? Why do I want it so badly?

Okay... Some of what you've said mirrors my experience. However, I was in denial about it until I was 34, then when I was 35 I finally came out.

I watched gay porn off and on for years. When I watched straight porn I was more inclinded to watch the guy. When I walked down the street, especially in the summer, I would look at the guys more than the girls.

Eventually, I made friends with an openly gay guy and he was talking about things and everything finally started making sense and fitting into the correct places. I came out to him a few months later.

If you are not sure then I see no harm in experimenting. It is one sure way to find out.