How do i do about my pain
08-29-2010, 01:09 AM
this may sound so stupid and cheesy
but it already happen to me, it's like an opera soup show for sure...
3 years ago when I was 15, it was my first time to use MSN or social network websites such as hi5, facebook or tagged, i found a guy on the internet. He was 17 and at the first sight he looked so lame but the reason that I started talking to him was to practice my English...
I spent about 4 hours on talking to him in the morning (my time, it means it's at night his time) and about 30 minutes at night cuz he needed to go to school
it was a couple of days we talked, he became so interesting even though i didnt understand much about what he said cuz he usually used 'American Slang' but I was surely sure that I understood one sentence from him it was "these days I feel so connected, I have no idea why... but I feel happy when I talk to you scotty, will u be my bf?"
Of course, i said yes cuz I feel the same way... after that, I enjoyed talking to him so much and usually spent my free time on talkin to him like a crazy boy cuz I totally was in love with him .... we talked almost everyday via email and MSN.
3 months later he asked me if it was better to come out with his family, I accept i was to stupid and so innocent about it, i said yes and told him to come out with his family...
he did it.
BUT it's not what we thought his father hated him as a gay, and fortunately, he told everyone that he was in a relationship with me on the internet...
his father suddenly closed him off from internet and finally sent him to a collage in a city where he can never do something gay ...Florida.
the worst thing was I didnt know where he lived and when he went there ... I completely lost in touch with him the last thing I knew from him was he got trouble about his family and he would try best to get in touch with me...
I've decided to wait for him to come back somehow...
it's been 3 years that i've been waiting for him, trying so many ways to find where he is but never seen any clue...
I've been feeling so suffering about it, I usually spend at least an hour to cry and think of him...
what should i do to get out off this pain or I should go on waiting for him?
but it already happen to me, it's like an opera soup show for sure...
3 years ago when I was 15, it was my first time to use MSN or social network websites such as hi5, facebook or tagged, i found a guy on the internet. He was 17 and at the first sight he looked so lame but the reason that I started talking to him was to practice my English...
I spent about 4 hours on talking to him in the morning (my time, it means it's at night his time) and about 30 minutes at night cuz he needed to go to school
it was a couple of days we talked, he became so interesting even though i didnt understand much about what he said cuz he usually used 'American Slang' but I was surely sure that I understood one sentence from him it was "these days I feel so connected, I have no idea why... but I feel happy when I talk to you scotty, will u be my bf?"
Of course, i said yes cuz I feel the same way... after that, I enjoyed talking to him so much and usually spent my free time on talkin to him like a crazy boy cuz I totally was in love with him .... we talked almost everyday via email and MSN.
3 months later he asked me if it was better to come out with his family, I accept i was to stupid and so innocent about it, i said yes and told him to come out with his family...
he did it.
BUT it's not what we thought his father hated him as a gay, and fortunately, he told everyone that he was in a relationship with me on the internet...
his father suddenly closed him off from internet and finally sent him to a collage in a city where he can never do something gay ...Florida.
the worst thing was I didnt know where he lived and when he went there ... I completely lost in touch with him the last thing I knew from him was he got trouble about his family and he would try best to get in touch with me...
I've decided to wait for him to come back somehow...
it's been 3 years that i've been waiting for him, trying so many ways to find where he is but never seen any clue...
I've been feeling so suffering about it, I usually spend at least an hour to cry and think of him...
what should i do to get out off this pain or I should go on waiting for him?
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mile: I had a similar experience this year when a friend from when I was seven years old contacted me. Again, he still doesn't show up on the web, but he made the effort to get in touch. I have been searching for him for years too.