It's no use trying
10-31-2011, 05:27 PM
Hi guys... Need to vent out a bit.
Im a hopeless romantic. I have that dream that someday a guy would do everything for me to fall for him. Im the kinda kid who wants someone's arms around me so i feel protected or someone who'll text me early in the morning just to say something sweet. Cheesy, yeah, but the heart wants what it wants. I do have a 'type' and standards but i also believe that everyone deserves a chance.
Anyway, i met a guy on Grindr who almost fit my type perfectly. Tall, muscular, good looking and masculine (he's a model/rich too but that's just a plus) and he was the one who contacted me. So obviously, i was gonna give this guy a heck of a chance. Im not being all naive that he just wants to know about me: he wants sex... duh.
So... hoping that maybe something (even a friendship) may come out of it, i come over to his house, we talk a little (and by little, i mean almost not at all) and he basically just fucks the shit out of my throat till he cums. I cum too, then in almost complete silence and no emotion whatsoever we wash up, dress up and he starts fixing his house as if i just vanished. He leads me to the door. Asks me 'did you enjoy?' I reply a barely audible 'yeah'. Then leave.
I was just his toy. A sex toy.
Most would say that he was just some cocky guy who uses people for sex but from what ive experienced from every single guy who's asked me out, they just want sex. From the smallest connection or spark that's there, they're gonna pounce on it and try to fuck me.
To mention another example, my last big crush asked me out on a date. Everything seemed to go perfectly for me in terms of attraction in his physical attributes and personality. Afterward we started making out (so i really thought something wonderful would come out of it). Then that was repeated on 2 more dates. When i began getting attached to him, i asked him where we were going with it and he simply says 'i like hanging out with you but im not looking for a relationship' then asks me if he could fuck me.
That 'true love' shit where a guy can love you so much that he wouldnt mind not doing anything sexual because he really loves you? Not true. Hoping for that bf that would make your heart skip a beat? Not coming.
Fuck love. Im a toy. Come and play with me.
Im a hopeless romantic. I have that dream that someday a guy would do everything for me to fall for him. Im the kinda kid who wants someone's arms around me so i feel protected or someone who'll text me early in the morning just to say something sweet. Cheesy, yeah, but the heart wants what it wants. I do have a 'type' and standards but i also believe that everyone deserves a chance.
Anyway, i met a guy on Grindr who almost fit my type perfectly. Tall, muscular, good looking and masculine (he's a model/rich too but that's just a plus) and he was the one who contacted me. So obviously, i was gonna give this guy a heck of a chance. Im not being all naive that he just wants to know about me: he wants sex... duh.
So... hoping that maybe something (even a friendship) may come out of it, i come over to his house, we talk a little (and by little, i mean almost not at all) and he basically just fucks the shit out of my throat till he cums. I cum too, then in almost complete silence and no emotion whatsoever we wash up, dress up and he starts fixing his house as if i just vanished. He leads me to the door. Asks me 'did you enjoy?' I reply a barely audible 'yeah'. Then leave.
I was just his toy. A sex toy.
Most would say that he was just some cocky guy who uses people for sex but from what ive experienced from every single guy who's asked me out, they just want sex. From the smallest connection or spark that's there, they're gonna pounce on it and try to fuck me.
To mention another example, my last big crush asked me out on a date. Everything seemed to go perfectly for me in terms of attraction in his physical attributes and personality. Afterward we started making out (so i really thought something wonderful would come out of it). Then that was repeated on 2 more dates. When i began getting attached to him, i asked him where we were going with it and he simply says 'i like hanging out with you but im not looking for a relationship' then asks me if he could fuck me.
That 'true love' shit where a guy can love you so much that he wouldnt mind not doing anything sexual because he really loves you? Not true. Hoping for that bf that would make your heart skip a beat? Not coming.
Fuck love. Im a toy. Come and play with me.
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there is someone out there for you you just have to be patient, I know how you feel even though I like girls, but it gets better don't sell yourself short.
