Just got absolutely drenched in a monsoon downpour! I may as well have just stepped into the shower fully clothed! Water literally pouring off me when I got home.

(07-03-2021, 06:09 PM)Bookworm Wrote: Just got absolutely drenched in a monsoon downpour! I may as well have just stepped into the shower fully clothed! Water literally pouring off me when I got home.

It was a bit like that today too, crazy downpours. Really loud thunder at one point too! Thankfully I wasn't caught out in it, I can only imagine it wasn't at all pleasant!

I've been feeling weird lately. I get super happy in one hour then miserable the next. I don't know. I kind of miss the spring when I was working 11 hours a day. All I had time for was work, studying, driving, and sleeping, and it didn't leave me any time to think about stuff or notice stuff that puts me down. I don't know. I've been cooking really elaborate meals lately to help keep my mind occupied. It sort of works.

^ This world really needs more people who cook elaborate meals anyway.

Completely unrelated to anything but since you brought it up...I find myself loathing cooking more and more every day. I do it, because...I am human and I need my food. But I am getting to the point of hating it. Of course, what I do isn't exactly super technical, inventive, gourmet or anything remotely close to any of that. It's just food. But I hate it.

All my grown up life I've been obsessed with self-sufficient functional adulting. And this is not that. What a fucking awful feeling.

I also get it now. When they ask you if you like a man that "can cook". Apparently that has been added to the list for me. It's not a big list, but still.

What can I say Chasey boy. You should address these mood swings with someone that can help you figure out why they happen, if you weren't already doing that, duh, otherwise, keep it up.


How am I today. A bit drunk, but not too much. Which is a real shame, because I saw the news of good ol England last summer when COVID measures were relaxed and I kept that girl (?) passed out by a dumpster (?) in my head. GOALS. I wanna be that girl. Maybe like a month after I get my second dose finally.

I did get the first one although things were crazy filled here so I had to take an appointment in Tarragona, which involved a nice train ride, some tourist-ing. Roman ruins cause those are always good, dippin my legs in the warm water at the beach. Just overall a fun day trip with a shot for a bonus.

Otherwise busy, working, making the best to keep up with the not-so-crazy-heat-but-humidity-makes-it-worse-than-it-should-be-and-I'm-not-used-to-it deal. Changed locations to a new flat which is, I've now realized, at the edge of the "gay neighborhood" , but also closer to work.

Back in sudaca lands I am losing my shit at all the Pinochet-lovers collecting electoral defeat after electoral defeat. It's beautiful. The convention that will draft the new constitution is dominated by progressive people and they elected a mapuche woman as their president. Poetic.

I think that is it for me. For now. But you WILL hear from me again. Yes that is a threat.

For the moment, past birthdays, newcomers, not-doing-so-well peeps, doing-pretty-damn-fine crowd:

Threatening us? @Insertnamehere



I wish I had more time to cook, sadly, I have to go out to get lunch. It is also very apparent that good cooking can be a bit expensive too. Inflation is pretty obvious although everyone wants to pretend there isn't inflation.

As to the subject of mood swings. I can only speak from experiences I've had and I am also an idiot so take what I say with a grain of salt. If I sit and think on about things in detail many times I can trace my feelings back to a thought or a reaction (which is really...thoughts) to something. I find that when I worry or am anxious about something the thoughts are almost always negative. So yes, there is some truth to the being mindful about thoughts, but it is difficult to do and keep a check on that all the time.

Also some truth to the saying "an idle mind is the devil's workshop," and really that is just another way of saying that you're more than likely to experience depression and anxiety when you're bored. So, that means you should put more time towards doing things you like, maybe it is your writing, trying a new hobby, taking a day trip, etc...

Remember our previous conversations and I'm not trying to kiss your ass or anything, but remember, there's nothing wrong with how you are, you're an intelligent, creative and a good looking guy. Anyone who says otherwise is probably jealous and an asshole. No one should be jealous of your successes. Learning to love yourself, completely, is something that can be challenging, hell I haven't really ever "accepted" myself, so if it were easy to do I would have taken the advice I'm giving.

I'm good, checking out the forum community. Newbie here, so just exploring and learning. Thanks for asking!

Can't sleep due to all the worries I have at the moment. The future looks very uncertain indeed.

(07-20-2021, 01:57 AM)ChocolateKing305 Wrote: I'm good, checking out the forum community. Newbie here, so just exploring and learning. Thanks for asking!

Well come to GS mate.

(07-24-2021, 01:11 AM)artyboy Wrote: Can't sleep due to all the worries I have at the moment. The future looks very uncertain indeed.

After all the drama, I had with family members yesterday, which was a downer. Today I am feeling good!