My day was okay, but it was kind of busy.

(10-01-2022, 04:00 AM)JDD22 Wrote:

   Hi—So I met a new friend at the bus stop yesterday, he came over to play video-games today. We went out for a smoke, he started talking about girls and I told him that I'm not much into girls! He looked at me in defeated surprise or something and asked me you're gay? I told him yeah, and we got all quiet and weird around each other. I made it clear that I was simply looking for a friend and that I should've told him ahead of time! He told me his roommate is gay so I figure he's cool with gay people. We went out to eat with another friend, I got back home and texted my new friend, telling him how good of a friend he is with no reply .. heh heh .. The dude was genuinely and non-fictitiously surprised to find out I'm gay—I really am just looking for a friend though! Haha, I'm sure he'll come around.

   But anyway, other than that, my day was decent—I have to be honest though, sometimes I feel like just another pillar holding up a floor that's about to collapse for people to dance on .. 

   —Sorry if it's too much to read.

   Welp—Thanks for taking the time to look into this post! I'm gonna try and reach for >50 posts!

   Keep working for handsome&/beautiful in mind, body, and soul!

What games did you play @JDD22? Hopefully he comes around soon. Loved that you became friends with him meeting him at a bus stop. It makes me sad that we still feel like we need to declare that we are gay though as it may shock someone otherwise :/.

Today I'm tired. I let myself stay up too late last night.

I'm doing better than earlier that's for sure—got into an argument with one of my parents, it was a miserable bus ride home; I've come to tell myself all over again that if someone says something and another says the other, confounding the shit outta you, trust your own experience!

(10-02-2022, 10:19 AM)Cridders88 Wrote:

(10-01-2022, 04:00 AM)JDD22 Wrote:

   Hi—So I met a new friend at the bus stop yesterday, he came over to play video-games today. We went out for a smoke, he started talking about girls and I told him that I'm not much into girls! He looked at me in defeated surprise or something and asked me you're gay? I told him yeah, and we got all quiet and weird around each other. I made it clear that I was simply looking for a friend and that I should've told him ahead of time! He told me his roommate is gay so I figure he's cool with gay people. We went out to eat with another friend, I got back home and texted my new friend, telling him how good of a friend he is with no reply .. heh heh .. The dude was genuinely and non-fictitiously surprised to find out I'm gay—I really am just looking for a friend though! Haha, I'm sure he'll come around.

   But anyway, other than that, my day was decent—I have to be honest though, sometimes I feel like just another pillar holding up a floor that's about to collapse for people to dance on .. 

   —Sorry if it's too much to read.

   Welp—Thanks for taking the time to look into this post! I'm gonna try and reach for >50 posts!

   Keep working for handsome&/beautiful in mind, body, and soul!

What games did you play @JDD22? Hopefully he comes around soon. Loved that you became friends with him meeting him at a bus stop. It makes me sad that we still feel like we need to declare that we are gay though as it may shock someone otherwise :/.

   Hi Cridders88! We just played Raiden V: Director's Cut—It's a vertical-scrolling, cooperative fighter-jet game! I love the Raiden series! I'll play just about any of that stuff! He inevitably did come around in fact, he texted me a day later. He apparently goes to the same med clinic I go to and lives around my area, surprisingly enough. Why do you love the fact that we met at a bus stop if you don't mind me asking? Ugh, yeah—I couldn't agree with you more .. It makes me sad too. I can't believe there are still people out there who'd be alarmed over finding out someone's sexual orientation, and how it could jeopardize a friendship. My new friend did mention that he has a gay roommate so I figure he's cool with gay men. He called me earlier this morning, but I missed it and called back with no response.

   Other than that, I'd like to be certain that you're doing well Cridders88! Let's keep our chins up! Take care—all right? 

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   I'm doing fine today, I slept all of yesterday and woke up late morning today. A few nights ago, there was a fight that broke out at the apartment building diagonal from mine while I was out smoking. Two people were pummeling this one individual at the base of their steps outside. It stunned me for a few seconds then I grabbed all my things and went inside to my room and decided to contact law enforcement because I was just so concerned about the person getting injured. I personally don't believe settling any argument through violence—you don't have to sacrifice lives when you can sacrifice words. Organized fighting is fine, like boxing or ultimate fighting championship; anything other than that I don't agree with.

   So! Thanks for asking! Take care all!

I did just fine today, I'm already mildly groggy right now.

I just got done watching "Chronicle," it's a 2012 movie about three teenagers who discover supernatural abilities and how their lives start to spin out of control—I think it teaches a lot about discipline, identity, and decision-making, it'd be interesting if stuff like this happened in real life; it's almost like giving a ten-year-old a weapon, expecting them to figure out how to use it on their own just on a much, much larger scale. If you haven't seen this movie, I highly recommend it!

—Wow, there really isn't much going on in GS huh. I probably should've done just a wee bit more research before I made my profile on here. Oh well .. It's quite apparent that people don't really use the whole forum set-up these days.

Gah, I'm so reluctant to sleep tonight; in which I almost always am as with all other nights. I've got to wake up earlier than usual tomorrow morning to go grocery shopping. I can't wait till the cold weather settles in these parts, I'd like to be certain that it's a frostbitten winter—love me a ciggie; a hot beverage; my favorite music; bundled up in some nice warm clothes!

Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. said, "You do not have to see the whole staircase, just take the first step." However, at times, I find myself even struggling to lift my right leg to do just that!

—I honestly do apologize if this is just way too damn much to read; although it feels nice that someone, somewhere asked me how I'm doing today.

I hope you did fine today too.

@JDD22

The reason I said that I loved the fact that the two of you became friends at a bus stop is that I find it very hard to strike up conversations with strangers. It was refreshing to hear that a friendship blossomed from a chance encounter .

@Cridders88

Okay—that clarifies it for me. I couldn't agree with you more, especially in my town. Everyone usually keeps to themselves a lot unfortunately. I'll wave and smile at strangers as I walk to the store or something and they'll do the same but that's about as far as it'll go. Sometimes, they don't even respond! My new friend was over last night and we played more Raiden V: Director's Cut! He seems totally cool so far! I'm so glad he's cool with gay peeps.

How am I? Doing well today, it's a bank holiday so I had a small sleep in. I have some chores to deal with, and then I'll spend the afternoon relaxing.

I'm doing all right—I've been trying to train myself to be in more contentment with my life by reviewing the things that I am thankful for, I just have such a restless mind! I keep yearning for productivity & reward. Getting a job or volunteering sounds like a great way to feed that need; however, no matter how much I put my mind to it, I just won't budge. I also can't stand this, although natural and innate, desire to be with a romantic partner; while at the same time, I know I'm in no condition to be in a relationship. It's quite clear that I'm in the situation where it's like, "I need to yet I can't"—I'm trying to weigh out my options as well, knowing that there are goods & bads to everything. I've done the whole "break your comfort-zones" thing, enough to know what the entire ballpark is like and my outcomes. It's so frikkin' aggravating sometimes. My new friend kinda trailed off on me, I haven't heard from him in a while. Oh well, I'll be fine; I'm certain something will come along.