lonely :(

[Anonymous]

Through the week I am happy in my job - I love my job and feel productive and satisfied with life. However when it comes to weekends all this goes. I spend my time stuck to the PC screen feeling lonely, trying to make connections with gay people from the internet *sigh*. I am reminded that my 2 best friends live in other countries; the few friends that live near me are not really emotionally close enough for me to PROPERLY talk to; of the 3 GAY friends I have - 2 live at a bit of a distance, 1 is my ex and I feel he tries to keep me at a distance even though we are supposed to be dear friends, and the 1 who lives near me is really pissing me off and seems to take humour from that; I am too cautious about going out at weekend evenings since I was beaten up in a night club and I have not been out for ages, I can't even walk around town anymore without constantly looking over my shoulder and watching everyone that goes past. I don't feel like I really have anyone besides my mum. :frown: