what is wrong with me?

[mikeyhexagon]

Middle eastern but raised in the west. Not Muslim but then again in all religions being gay is forbidden so there is a sense of shame or guilt. Parents are elderly and will kill them literally if I tell them, they already have enough drama in their lives. I have not found that person to trust and love so what is the sense of being out and not everyone is open about their sexuality, I am a private person and what is between my legs is my business and not subject to entertain others or be their topic of prejudices.

The thing is probably that online is a bad place to start meeting people, believe me every week I get comments about size, orientation etc.. So low class. I was raised in a classy family and in our family we do not even talk about money, let alone sex etc.. So yes, I do appreciate your comments, you are a very nice person. I also think bi or gay or straight it is all labels and love is a complex thing.

My brain only sends a signal to my private part to have sex when I am in love or fallen for someone, compared to most guys who see sex as their satisfaction and once they get that, they leave and go to someone else.