07-23-2016, 02:38 PM
@Prince Wow you are an amazing kind person. You and [MENTION=21957]Darius[/MENTION] totally get me. Ok just to answer a few questions. I am in my late 40's and even though I was raised in the west, my parents are from middle east. I am very open minded and I like a person first and then develop love and wanting to be physically close to them. To me cuddling is at times more pleasurable than sex and I had that with one or two guys who did not take it further, which was fine with me.
Like you both said finding that person is hard, even when I read some profiles and they all say that, they hardly keep the conversation. Now look wise I have been told numerous times that I am attractive so it is not even that. All I get is dirty talk and hookup requests despite my profiles on now one dating site.
[MENTION=21957]Darius[/MENTION] yes I do jack off and do not feel bad about it, guys who are attractive both physically and also have some moral tone to them attract me. I am coming to terms with what I am, since I was a kid I was attracted to a manly role model. My relationship with my dad is good but he is at times very authoritive but that is his upbringing.
Believe me had I been this age or even earlier and born into a family that was raising kids in the year 2016, I would not be ashamed or scared of the consequences to talk to my parents, but they are very fragile and sick. They will never comprehend it, not so much because they are prejudice but putting myself in their shoes being raised over 60 years ago, that is how it was back then.
My brothers are married and we are not that close to talk about these things, again they all have their own martial issues. So still happy that you both given me somethings to think about. I dated a guy 2 years ago and it was amazing no sex, we shared hobbies and interest and good times, we cuddled but he apparently wanted more and was seeing other guys for sex and still came here to enjoy my company. That hurt me, so I guess it was my fault, but then again why would I have gotten physically intimate with someone who cheats and sleeps around, in a way I was lucky.
Oh man, really life can be so complicated and painful, even if one is out still they have to deal with crap. I feel we are like X-Men the movie, we are good people yet looked down upon, hopefully that will change in the future. Thanks again.
Like you both said finding that person is hard, even when I read some profiles and they all say that, they hardly keep the conversation. Now look wise I have been told numerous times that I am attractive so it is not even that. All I get is dirty talk and hookup requests despite my profiles on now one dating site.
[MENTION=21957]Darius[/MENTION] yes I do jack off and do not feel bad about it, guys who are attractive both physically and also have some moral tone to them attract me. I am coming to terms with what I am, since I was a kid I was attracted to a manly role model. My relationship with my dad is good but he is at times very authoritive but that is his upbringing.
Believe me had I been this age or even earlier and born into a family that was raising kids in the year 2016, I would not be ashamed or scared of the consequences to talk to my parents, but they are very fragile and sick. They will never comprehend it, not so much because they are prejudice but putting myself in their shoes being raised over 60 years ago, that is how it was back then.
My brothers are married and we are not that close to talk about these things, again they all have their own martial issues. So still happy that you both given me somethings to think about. I dated a guy 2 years ago and it was amazing no sex, we shared hobbies and interest and good times, we cuddled but he apparently wanted more and was seeing other guys for sex and still came here to enjoy my company. That hurt me, so I guess it was my fault, but then again why would I have gotten physically intimate with someone who cheats and sleeps around, in a way I was lucky.
Oh man, really life can be so complicated and painful, even if one is out still they have to deal with crap. I feel we are like X-Men the movie, we are good people yet looked down upon, hopefully that will change in the future. Thanks again.
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