i broke-up :((

[Crisit21]

I'm going to remain in a high state of beeing until the hurting stops, i hope in a month i will be ok, even though his birthday will be on 5 january, and i will be sad once more, should i tell him happy birthday and leave him a gift in the postal office or should i do nothing... I miss him so much, i could have had sex with that girl but i didnt even could of thinking of that, i couldnt be able to do even a j.o. for some long time, i think i feel better but is only an ilusion , my hart still hurts big time. Now i try thinking of the future but it looks so cloudy... Oh well