Emotions all over the place

[NorCalGuy]

Thanks guys. I'm trying to move on and forgive, but just that nagging feeling of being used, dumped and being replaced so easily makes me feel like crap. Plus it angers me beyond belief.

I haven't been in many relationships, but when I've broken up with my ex's I was always very nice, polite and caring for their emotions. Never would I've gotten into a new relationship, bragged about it and posted pics on FB. Which my current ex did. Why would someone do that? It's like pouring salt into an open wound. Plus he literally just left. Left me with the bills and the rent.

I guess what really gets to me is that he just moved on like it was nothing. I know a few of you said that he was planning this and that's why he is much farther ahead than I. I think you're right. But still it hurts that someone could just throw away a friendship and relationship away like it was nothing. And then jump into a new one within days. Pass go, here's your 200 bucks and move right along. Like I said before I lost what I thought was my best friend and that really, really hurts.

I kindof knew the relationship was going downhill, was in a bit of denial about it and actually planned a trip for us in Jan so we could just get away and rekindle things. I know relationships go up and down and well sometimes you need to add a little spark once in a while.

I just hate being in this emotional rollercoaster and want it to end now.