04-21-2012, 01:41 AM
I am lonely like you, and even more so.
It wasn't until after college did I have the "guts" to hang out. I did not have any friends to hang out with when growing up. It was school and straight home. I didn't hang out because I was "obligated" to spend any freetime with my cousins and aunt who lived in the same building as me and practically raised my family growing up.
I had friends in elementary school, but never hung out after school. I had friends in junior high school, but never hung out. I had friends in high school, but never hung out. I had friends in college, and only then did I occasionally hang out - stay after school for projects. It wasn't until only about five years ago did I start hanging out with several high school classmates of mine whom I meet up for dinner every once in a while. And it wasn't until three years ago did I come out of the closet at work and hung out with coworkers after work.
I thought I was forever to be lonely myself. And I still kind of believe in that. I am not out of the closet, and am afraid to date, let alone meet anyone. This past Wednesday, I went bowling with my hot ex-coworker and his other gay friends. I was invited, and I went along with it only because I had never gone bowling before. They were hot, and were super affectionate with each other. And I didn't know anyone of them. There I was, sitting there, waiting for my coworker to finish talking to his friends. I felt so alone over there.
I think I need to open up myself, to be not so afraid to meet new people. I get intimidated by new people, especially good looking men. Why? I went to school with mainly girls in high school and college. I forgot how to make friends with other guys.
I didn't help you in any way, did I? This is to get something off my chest.
It wasn't until after college did I have the "guts" to hang out. I did not have any friends to hang out with when growing up. It was school and straight home. I didn't hang out because I was "obligated" to spend any freetime with my cousins and aunt who lived in the same building as me and practically raised my family growing up.
I had friends in elementary school, but never hung out after school. I had friends in junior high school, but never hung out. I had friends in high school, but never hung out. I had friends in college, and only then did I occasionally hang out - stay after school for projects. It wasn't until only about five years ago did I start hanging out with several high school classmates of mine whom I meet up for dinner every once in a while. And it wasn't until three years ago did I come out of the closet at work and hung out with coworkers after work.
I thought I was forever to be lonely myself. And I still kind of believe in that. I am not out of the closet, and am afraid to date, let alone meet anyone. This past Wednesday, I went bowling with my hot ex-coworker and his other gay friends. I was invited, and I went along with it only because I had never gone bowling before. They were hot, and were super affectionate with each other. And I didn't know anyone of them. There I was, sitting there, waiting for my coworker to finish talking to his friends. I felt so alone over there.
I think I need to open up myself, to be not so afraid to meet new people. I get intimidated by new people, especially good looking men. Why? I went to school with mainly girls in high school and college. I forgot how to make friends with other guys.
I didn't help you in any way, did I? This is to get something off my chest.