How are you today?

[Bookworm]

I'm not doing well.

I'm kinda ashamed that I always come back to GS as soon as I feel bad. But well.

Since a few days, depression rules my day again, and I sleep half of the day because sleeping enables me to escape. When I'm awake, I'm grumpy, don't see a point in doing anything, can hardly do what I meant to do, so keeping it to a minimum, like going to the supermarket.

The problem is that there is no help for me. A friend has offered to talk, but he won't be able to understand me, my life is completely different to his. He surely can't grasp what goes on on my mind, what I deal with all my life. But then, whatever group I end up in, even here on GS, I will always feel like an outsider, like I'm not on par with others. Focussing on my deficits doesn't help, but the world around me reminds me of them 24/7.

I'm not having dark thoughts or so, I'm just completely tired of fighting my way out of my issues. There is no way out of my issues, and there will be more issues in the future.

Maybe I will die without ever having sex. It's as it is. I just can't, and I don't know why, and how can anyone understand it if not even I do. I must accept that I'm the odd one, in whatever constellation of people I end up with. I'm tired of becoming someone I'm not.

Sorry to hear that you are down again Aquarius.

Why not give your friend the opportunity to at least talk with you. I know you don't think he will be able to relate to your circumstances and where you are emotionally, but he may surprise you?
After all, he did offer so you should at least take him up on it. It's a starting point. I know it's a struggle to break out of the depressive lethargy you find yourself in but try and get out to meet him, maybe over coffee or lunch, somewhere away from your usual haunts. Even a change of scenery, however short, may lift your mood.

[himself]

Shite. I have to finish my dissertation very soon but I can't concentrate on it, at all. I've been looking at it all week and I have done nothing. The thought of doing work is making me nervous. I think I'm becoming allergic to hard work.

[Dan1980]

I feel good today!

[Zen]

Shite. I have to finish my dissertation very soon but I can't concentrate on it, at all. I've been looking at it all week and I have done nothing. The thought of doing work is making me nervous. I think I'm becoming allergic to hard work.

Oh mate! I hear you mate, it's hard getting going sometimes! What's your dissertation project?

[Zen]

I'm so tired that I feel extra mellow! Not even sure if that makes sense outside of my head! ;-p

[Cridders88]

Work has, overall, been better this week (bar one horrible day). Dare I say it, I may have even enjoyed it a bit today. So feeling calm, and less stressed

[himself]

Oh mate! I hear you mate, it's hard getting going sometimes! What's your dissertation project?

Plasma diagnostics.

[sillyboy86]

Having an ok time also last week was ok. Just watched an interview to Dave Lachapelle on the italian tv.

[Zen]

Plasma diagnostics.

Sounds very intense! Good luck. Just take it a step at a time :-))

[Dan1980]

Very tired I didn't get to sleep until 4am