BellyNel Wrote:How am I today?
Well, felt good for a few hours as I figured out how to CAD "decently" enough, even though I've been using Photoshop for the past 3 years.
I've only been out to coworkers for the past 3 years only. I have no idea what it's like to be touched "affectionately" by another gay man. My now ex-coworker, who's gay, during the past year, had been more affectionate with me - squeezing my shoulders as he walked by my cubicle, calling me "... Nelson, mi amor..." I do find him hot, and he is, too! But, he's off limits to me - he's like an older brother to me, and he's had many hot exes. He's friends with me... well, at least I think he thinks of me as so. I've eaten lunch with him practically everyday for the past 3 years.
Just this past Wednesday, I went bowling with him and his friend. I was just invited, and normally I wouldn't go, but I want to experience bowling for the first time. So, there I was, with his other friends, who were buff and hot and sexy and super affectionate with each other. My ex-coworker had squeezed my lap several times that night.
How should I be reading into this? Just being affectionate?
How should I be reading this? Just being friendly? After he left the company, I told our receptionist, who was also close to him, that I had a slight crush on him, and if it was okay or not to think that way. She said that's no surprise. If he was straight, then I would be crushing on him!
Ooh I'd love to learn photoshop/gimp.
Also, he's into you, general affection is hugging, kissing on cheek(closer friend kissing on lips). Squeezing your lap shows he's really excited about being with you, of course I could be totally wrong and he's just more touchy feely.
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Just woke up. Had a strange dream.
I was in a building with a friend. Passed a security guard. Then stumbled into Sam. My friend happens to be Sam's friend. Sam smiled at me. I took a separate elevator whilst my friend and Sam shared the same.
I met up my friend afterward. She told me that Sam asked about me a lot. I was surprised.
Then forward to another scene. My colleagues drove me to this place, which I thought was my house. My three colleagues waved and smiled at me. I saw few kids playing. Then I reached this single storey house and it belongs to Sam.
I asked those kids, 'Where's Sam?".
They told he left for a while and should be back later. Then they mentioned something about his parents.
It was just a dream but it was still awkward.
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Jay Wrote:Just woke up. Had a strange dream.
I was in a building with a friend. Passed a security guard. Then stumbled into Sam. My friend happens to be Sam's friend. Sam smiled at me. I took a separate elevator whilst my friend and Sam shared the same.
I met up my friend afterward. She told me that Sam asked about me a lot. I was surprised.
Then forward to another scene. My colleagues drove me to this place, which I thought was my house. My three colleagues waved and smiled at me. I saw few kids playing. Then I reached this single storey house and it belongs to Sam.
I asked those kids, 'Where's Sam?".
They told he left for a while and should be back later. Then they mentioned something about his parents.
It was just a dream but it was still awkward.
I've always wondered if those dreams ever meant anything.
not looking forward to work tomorrow, I really really hate my job :frown:
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Feeling a little better. Super sleepy though.
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bleh...woke up with a sore throat and my sinuses feel like they're stuffed with concrete.
Gonna be one of THOSE days I see....:tongue:
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Just got back from lunch. I usually go out for lunch with the rest of my colleagues. But not today.
So anyways whilst waiting for an elevator in the lobby, I saw this one familiar muscular buff figure entering our office building. Oh, crap. I know that figure. It was Sam. He was with his colleague.
'Okay, Jay. Smile. Crack a smile." I kept telling myself.
Sam looked at me and then smiled. "Hi, mate." He's British.
I managed to crack a little smile. "Hi ..." I croaked.
Sam and his colleague walked past me as his colleague wanted to go to a convenience store located at the other side of the building's lobby.
Few seconds later, Sam and his colleague appeared again. They were waiting for an elevator as well. But both of them stood at the left side of the lobby. I stood at the right side. Sam took a peek at me.
I wasn't ready to have a chat whatsoever with Sam. A smile was a big step. A hello was a progress in my book.
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Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck... I really don't want to go to work... I was hoping this manic state would be gone by now... fuck......
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XRIMO Wrote:Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck... I really don't want to go to work... I was hoping this manic state would be gone by now... fuck......
One  for you XRIMO
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