to clear everything up (heh):
post#9 : I generally get big sticky lumps of unhappyness stuck to my face every so often. The thick of it tends to scoop off, but there's always remnants left stuck close to the surface. Black slick of inadequacy on my skin...
post #10 : Damn right. Got a depressive mam, and depressive, an ex-scuicidal Uncle (and corresponding hollow, scuicidal and comfort eating wife and two daughers - respectively), and some very questionable emotions that I hear from stories about my grandparents. My lil sis is starting to show signs also. Thinking it's genetic.
And the drugs numb off some of it, and make me more bouyant. Were making me gain weight though, so stopped takin em as soon as I got into decent momentum.
Post #11 : Damn right I'm a lovely young man. Just an unhappy one.
Post #12 : So do I. (But I didn't get out of bed till after noon, coz I'm a slob.)
Feeling TIRED today. So I'm going to have some go to sleep. And a drink of WATA.
Lovely.
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Kinda pissed because I have to work 12 hours today... stupid overtime... but I need the money...
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I'm good... found out my annual pay-rise and bonus today.
Pay wise was a bit bleh... but bonus... I'm chuffed...
Its worked out via an "Individual Performance Multiplier" or "IPM"... basically a percentage. 100% (ie, the standard Bonus) is achieved if you have met your agreed targets for the year. Anything less means you haven't met them, anything more means you've exceeded them.
I got 115% :biggrin:
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Got a wake up call about the stupid house contract. Seems the local lawyer isnt moving forward fast enough as it just isnt their top priority so now I gotta bitch at them (I hate telling people off and am way too polite = someone wanna help and make the call for me)...
It was really warm today (but expecting an ice storm tomorrow) and cleaning up the house felt really good. I am 70% finished with cleaning up (excluding the basement) and it feels great. Opened up the windows and the house is smelling nice = is that weird?
So I was very productive and felt pretty good (except for the stupid lawyers office).
Got doc appts tomorrow and a biggie Wednesday so my schedule will be a mess for this week but still feeling nice that spring may be coming soon = bicycles waiting!
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I am very tired - last three days - all the weekend and today - I was tinkering with my notebook - ACPI conf was unavailable and I got really enraged with this stupid bug... uffff!!!
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