I am doing horrible today. Thanks for asking though.
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Same as yesterday, pretty much. Plus, my face is sunburnt lol.
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If you call standing around a trip, then yes. Haha, stood outside for too long. It was super hot and sunny, which I had mistaken for nice and beautiful. Now my face is nice and red. I could have at least taken my shirt off or something. This shirt tan is kinda lame.
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I thought I'd get out of the building, take my mind off of things, and enjoy the outdoors. Turns out it was equally miserable. Now my face is burnt, I'm pissed, this room is way too cold (oh the irony), and I'm back to dealing with the problem I brought up yesterday. Everything is, as some would say, "peachy".
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I am still not sure how I feel about your friend. I mean you are not happy this way. What will you do? Write to him, or break the friendship? Or nothing? Do you know what is the best option? What would make you happy?
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What would make me happy...Hmmm...
Well, He'd get upset cause I haven't talked to him for reasons he still doesn't know, then he gets frustrated and sends me a message explaining his mistake in trying to have an interest in this slut and confesses his undying love for me and how he can't stand being so far away and then I fly back on the next flight home and grab him and bring him here and then buy coffee and live happily ever after.
That's what would make me happy.
In reality? I don't know. I don't know how to cope with reality. I don't know how to be happy after he had replaced me with another friend. I don't know how to be happy when I know that he really does love this girl. I don't know how to be happy when I know that he will inevitably fall for this woman if not another and get married and have kids and move far away and never sees me again apart from the 160 x 160 pixel picture that claims to be my profile pic on Facebook. I'm afraid that my "happiness" is a lost cause.
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