How are you today?

[zeon]

im doing good... I have been fighting demons recently as i have stopped eating as much as i did and loosing weight but fighting to keep things going as feel sad sometimes inside and happy other times bit like a yoyo

[spencer]

I'm angry. I'm having severe separation anxiety from my boyfriend. T.T I didn't talk to him at all yesterday and still haven't heard from him today. The selfish part of me is angry that he's not paying attention to me and the unselfish side is worried that something's actually wrong and he died of heat stroke or something. I asked him to tell me his schedule so I wouldn't be freaking out like this but I guess he never got that test because he never did. I've been meaning to try and talk to him about these issues also so I won't be so crazy...but he never talks to me long enough for me to bring it up.

So I'm just accepting that he's forgotten about me and I should've known bettter than to think something this awesome could actually happen to me.

And when he texts me again it'll all be better. >.<

/ end rant

[matty7]

i feel like im just goin through the motions = as ive said before , lost my best mate recently ,, im not sad now for him - just jealous that hes got out of the crap we put up with every day every year, miss him but know hes got no shit to go through now

[mihai]

I just had a funny panormaic view of Brasov with a cool dude i never hoped to meet again ( my 1st ).
It was amazing how we could still talk like old times and stuff , was pretty cool And the best part we ahd fun with no sex involved

[dfiant]

Thank you guys , your caring makes me feel a lot better.
Went to the local witch doctor , I have sinusitis and a throat infection.

He put me on a 14 day course of antibiotics , not impressed, but must do.mile:

I used to suffer sinusitis with recurring regularity...every April infact from the age of 14 and it developed into Plueracy a few times...nearly drowned twice because psuedoephodrine has and adverse affect on me and creates the problems it is supposed to heal.

Then strangely enough and *touch wood* I have not had sinusitis or plueracy since I lived in Japan...strange I know.

I hope you recover quickly Mum

[Dan1980]

I am fine today. Just wish it will stop raining.

[Sceak]

I am abysmal. I feel so empty and for the very first time I can't blame anything.

In the past I could say that I was lonely, hungry or needed love or sex but these days I must just incline myself before the futility of my own existence.

In the past I used to watch Star Trek, wide-eyed and hopeful but these days I'm not even sure I'd want to contribute to humans leaving this rock.

I feel as if I was before an impasse. I feel like a cow, bred, getting milked and on my way to the slaughterhouse.

[ElfiexElfSeeker]

Tired, though I slept past my alarm. Still dealing with a newly found memory from my childhood that explains why I have always been uncomfortable with men. Its hot today, and overcast. I'm hoping for a storm. I might work on my painting. But what I really want is to get out of the house and have some fun. I hate being stuck here.

[Sylph]

I'm sad cause one of my Frogs slipped out of the tank somehow and has run away .

He was my pretty yellow one too and I loved him dearly. He's probably still around, but since they get no bigger than 1.5inches, it'll be hard to find him:frown:

I had to re-do the tank so my other frogs don't get out, and it turns out I had a small opening that they could slip under, cause their tree was pushing the top up some.

But on a good note, Sora [My Turtle - a.k.a my baby] Is shedding, getting rid of all the sick scutes and replacing them with pretty healthy new ones :biggrin: .

She's exhausted and is in full Diva mode now; "Get me lettuce" "Pick me up" "I want a carrot" ... I think she's just faking the exhaustion now that I think about it .

My Uncle got a Giant Rabbit and it's sooooo cute! I nearly stole the little precious! And it's completely white! I've never had a rabbit before, so I'm so jealous! lol

But you won't believe it! :mad:

I think I'm coming down with another cold... again! I left the Zoo half-day today, cause I had a coughing fit and you can't be sick around the animals :frown: . I can probably still work on the background stuff, like computer work and what not, but I really like working with the animals .

I'm gonna make myself better, by drinking my favourite brand of Hot Tea :biggrin: . It always makes me feel better. .

It's not too bad right now, just a cough here and there, but I'm gonna nip it in the bud!

Oh yea... It's nearly Sora's Birthday!! It's estimated to be August 15-20, because we don't know the actual day she was born[or hatched if you prefer], but we just celebrate it on the 20th :biggrin: . She's gonna be 4 [but I've had her for 3 years come August].

She's almost 9inches long!!! Females grow to be about 12 averagely and 15 at maximum and males around 8-10inches, sometimes a teensy bit bigger.

Sora's my big baby

[warmpixels]

I feel like a cow, bred, getting milked and on my way to the slaughterhouse.

About 3 years ago, I was going through a very bad breakup. I was way past the point where I had any feeling of self-worth, and was almost coming apart at the seams with the interminable voyage of a rudderless boat set adrift to the mercy of the currents of a heartless ocean.

And then one day I broke, crying on the streets of Hulhumalé while a very wise woman who was a consultant at work put my head on her shoulder and let my tears soak her shoulder pad.

And then she said, "Why don't you try just 'be'ing?"

I said, "What do you mean, being :confused: "

She said, "Not being, 'BE'ing. Everything's going horribly for you now, but that doesn't mean that you've got to fight it, or run away from it. Just be, W. Exist, even if it is unpleasant. I'm not promising that things will get better; you'll have to see that for youself."

And I existed. Since then I found love three times, broke up three times, returned home and ran away for the third time and met my boyfriend in January 2011.

It hasn't been easy living since then. Our romance isn't as creamy and smooth as I write about it in my blog, but chunky and chewy, where some bits we just spit out and the others we grit our teeth through.

And then here I am, still existing, hoping that one day I will feel whole and alive again.

But you know what? It's the BEing that's the zen of it all. I'm feeling a lot like what you described, Sceak. But the only thing is that I don't accept it, I know life is being terribly unfair to me, but sigh sigh... since when has life ever been fair?

I feel so f:eek:king low right now, I need a big hug, but my bf is spending the night at his mother's who demands a lot of his attention. There's nothing I can do about it, and I wish it wasn't that way because I need his love.

So I'll just have to , till the time's right.

Right?