11-26-2012, 07:33 AM
Mrmatty77 Wrote:Despite my attempts to make my day worth while, I still remain sad and depressed. I'm getting tired of being around people I can't communicate with and frankly, don't care much for. I really want to go back home or to the states in general. Finding friends here for me is the equivalent of finding water in a vast desert. (I almost spelt dessert, which reminded me of milkshake...) And so, I'm trying in every way that I can think of to find someone to talk to or something. It's working less than I was hoping, but beggars can't be choosers.
I feel the same way buddy.
I've basically spent the past four days alone in my room. My department had a Thanksgiving party Thursday and I felt as though I didn't belong. No matter how much I ask to hang out with the people I call my friends, they still find some excuse not to be with me. Is there something wrong with me? Is there some sort of barrier I give off to make people not want to be near me? I really hate being alone and forgotten. It kills me inside and I do not know how to get out of these chains that hold me back from who I could grow up to be.
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