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How are you today?
Spent a huge chunk of my day in a filthy, germ infested hell hole where no doubt in a couple of days I will present symptoms of some contagious disease and be sick for a week or more.

God I hate hospitals. This particular one has fire doors every so often and everyone has to hit this button on the wall to open the doors --- with their bare hands.... I ran out of wipes halfway through the day and had to rely on paper towels from the rest room in order to go from point A to point B in this Winchester Mystery Mansion of a Hospital.

Insufficient accessible stairways, so I had no other choice but to take elevators. My loathing of elevators is on par to my loathing of hospitals... grrr.

People coughing and sneezing in closed places (elevators) without covering their faces - These are the visitors... Lord only knows what horrors the patients carry....

I did spend about 30 minutes in my shower decontaminating myself.... I still feel like I have germs crawling all over me....

Yes I have a minor issue with 'germs'... Not all crazy like I worry about germs on every surface, but at hospitals and places where I know that there are creepy crawlies of all sorts (including drug resistant ones) - it works my nerves.

The other part of the day I was forced to conversate with the damned Vultures. The landlord apparently has a lot more property holdings then I ever knew about (or cared to ask about) and the Son-In-Law (who resides in Colorado) apparently thinks I am doing everything I am doing to help my landlord because I am trying to get in on the rather substantial inheritance.

This is a person who doesn't understand that people can actually be motivated by compassion and caring for their fellow human beings. It is clearl obvious that his motivation in life to do anything is simple greed. A particular emotion I am quite unfamiliar with since I am as materialistic as a tree.

So I need to shower again, this time for three and a half hours to get the feeling of filth that those phone conversations left me with off somehow.

A part of me knows I have been tainted for life by these phone conversations. Honestly the man kept asking me questions that made it sound like he wants the old man to be much sicker than he already is....

Thankfully this son-in-law lives in Colorado... If I had to deal with him face to face I think my urge to put my fist through his face would actually override my compassion and caring and gentle nature.

Germs and Vultures - that was yesterdays theme.
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trialbyerror Wrote:Archubbycub, for you (still got quoting issues)

A true story
When I was dealing with welfare, regards my foster son, I became aware of a youngester in the same home, whose background was thus:-

Removed from parents, father sexually abusive (I'm in no way implying anything whatsoever by this please)

Father could only see the lad under supervision

Invarably, the arrangements broke down, and the lad would vent his frustration by hitting holes through doors, smashing his fist through window panes and banging his forehead repeatedly on the wall.

The lad hated what his father had done to him, but loved him non the less.

The point being, The ties that bind biologicals together can never be broken. Seems to me your son has been turned through malicous talk. Trust me when I say, that pidgeon will go home to roost with a vengance.

Take it from whence it came. It's not his fault right now. Keep the door open, communicate, let him know you love him. unconditionally.

The day will come when his eyes will open, and when that happens, he'll turn on those that have set you up as the monster.

Oh how he will turn.....

Just don't play the revenge / hate game through him, be the bigger one here.

Tough it out.

My heartfelt support
Trial by error

Oh believe me, I know who is fueling his fire right now, and it's not just my ex wife. My dad, before he passed away, confirmed all of this for me. And I in know way have tried to "use" my kids as a means of revenge (unlike others who will remain nameless *cough*). And I will admit I was furiating mad at first, but I'm more hurt than anything now. My BF keeps tellin me the same thing. That one day both of my sons' eyes will open up to the truth and will come back around. But it's really hard for me to see past the immediate present. I live both of my boys, and never in all my life meant to hurt them. It was never my intention for them to find out the real reason their mother and I got divorced until both of them were ready for it. But that is in the past now and I have to doy best to pick up the pieces and move forward.
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Well I just got some good news about my job. Seems my schedule won't be changing after all so hopefully I'll still get to be in the musical I auditioned for. Plus I'm headed to a pool party in a little less than an hour so I'm in a good mood right now!
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^^^^ Apparently you need to stop by the gifting game thread and pick up the gift I left - with a pool party you will definitely need what I left.
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Bowyn Aerrow Wrote:^^^^ Apparently you need to stop by the gifting game thread and pick up the gift I left - with a pool party you will definitely need what I left.

I couldn't find the thread you were talking about.
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Well that's ok. apparently TrialByError hogged the best parts of the gift and then foisted the rest off.

Gifting Game: http://gayspeak.com/showthread.php?p=308728#post308728

All word Games: http://gayspeak.com/forumdisplay.php?f=43
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I had a nice and peaceful sunday.
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a new day hassss comeee as celine dion would say lol

well its just past midnight here and i just got home from celebrating holiday in quebec, ironically with anglophones. just had a good night Smile had some junior mcchicken and poutine but still not full Sad but its raining outside now so i cant go back out. was just nice to enjoy the evening with cheerful ppl Smile
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I'm amazing because I have a job interview tomorrow and I'm really getting my hopes up! Smile
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For some strange reason I have been in a pretty good mood today. Actually I've been in a pretty good mood the past two or three days. I almost feel like my old fun loving self again. And I kinda like it! Smile
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