Got up way too early. Wake up at 4 or 5 am anyway, regardless.
Talked on here for a while.
Went to see Doctor.
Went grocery shopping.
Paid rent.
Came home, watched a movie and ate lunch.
Now Im bored and tired.
Want to take a nap SOOOO bad, but I feel really nauseous and sick after a nap during the day, so I try not to take them. Fall asleep sometimes anyway.
Bored, bored, bored, bored, bored.
Wish Chase, Bowyn, Lilitu, and Krupt were here.....think I need a boys night out....
So I go to see my Brother around like 5pm , who has just recently come back from England for 2 yrs and All of a sudden a "last minute" BBQ was sprung on my gay ass and I somehow ended up being the cook...
Which is all well and dandy, but I really was only there for my Brother, and to make it worse, the Males of his family kinda put me with the gurls when it came time to "talk time" and toon my Brother with them... I was like, who are these bitches?
So I had to endure "girl talk", which is normally fun, but then they started talking about their boy problems and even as a feminine boy, I still am a boy, so I had to excuse myself...
My Brother managed to escape and I quickly followed suit and we got to hangout, but all he ever talks about is Games and Girls...
*Sigh* Boys...
I'm so tired y'all it's like 12am right now! I'm gonna be so tired for work in a few hours...
I'm doing okay considering...
Some personal shit is bothering me, mainly involving not being able to afford my ideal college and my boyfriend, well now exboyfriend I guess, not talking to me for a couple weeks and suddenly changing his status to "single". I mean, the hell? I should be informed of being broken up with, right? *sigh* I give up on men. I'm gonna try dating women for a while. =_=
So the boyfriend and I were just watching this show on tv with our two friends that we live with and the subject of cybersex came up on the show. I had to get up and leave the room cause that's still just a touchy (no pun intended) subject for me. I've never had anyone cheat on me in a relationship, gay or straight. Does that feeling of betrayal ever go away? I want to trust him again, but I find myself wondering what he's doing even when he's just texting someone. God I hate this!!
Welp, now I'm slightly creeped out tonight.
I'm visiting my grandpa right now, staying in his apartment with my mom. I'm in the guest bedroom while my mom is using the pullout couch. Anyway, I'm settling down to sleep, reading a little on my Kindle app on my laptop while listening to music with my earbuds in. Suddenly, I notice my grandpa is standing the the doorway. I say hi, confused, and he looks at me, mummbles something, and turns around and goes back into his room.
I'm not tired anymore o_o More...disturbed. I feel I should back something against the door. I mean, my grandpa's harmless on a normal basis, but it certainly was creepy...
I'm just brooding. What about? I don't know. I just would like to punch someone or kick em in the chops. Or burn some flags just to provoke people. Even if it is my own flag cos it has the union jack I'd be insulting the rest of the commonwealth. (I don't like the being ruled by one person (unless I was that ruler))