How are you today?

[MisterTinkles]

I'm not doing so hot. I take an acting class and a few weeks ago my teacher made a point to tell me that because my teeth are so crooked, I'll never be able to be a proper stage actor. That really bummed me out cause I hate my smile. I know it's awful, I don't need to be reminded. But I was just getting over it when today, after I asked to be excused from an exercise because I felt embarrassed about doing it, he told me he wanted to speak to me privately.

He asked why I refused the exercise and I told him it made me uncomfortable and that I've recently realized that performing/acting just isn't what I want to do. Then for some reason, he decides to spend 5 minutes telling me how ugly I am, picking out all my physical flaws/insecurities (my weight, my teeth, my face in general, etc) and that if I want to be an actor I need to accept it so that I can focus on roles that call for that kind of actor.

I told him that I once played a romantic lead in a community theater show and he said "That's the last romantic lead you'll ever play. You're not Hal (the character I played), you're more like Hal's lab assistant." That's what he said verbatim. Mind you, this is all AFTER I told him I'm not interested in acting anymore.

Those aren't nice things to hear. I'll be honest, after that I found an empty stairwell and cried like a 16 year old girl being stood up for prom. It was gross. Now I'm so full of residual anger and depression I can't even find the will to go to class. I feel humiliated. I feel embarrassed that I actually try to pick out nice clothes or get a nice haircut cause what the fuck does it matter? I really really really don't want to be around people right now, but I have no choice. Fuck this day.

Apparently this turdbrain imbecile has never actually been IN any part of the industry.
There are PLENTY of actors (stage and screen) who have knarly or bad teeth!!

I cant post any pics right now, but here are some names.....

Anna Paquin
Madonna
Kirsten Dunst
Woody Harrelson
Seal
Lauren Hutton
Steve Buscemi (actually part of his "trademark")
Jeremy Renner
Jason Segel
Tom Hardy
John Leguizamo

[southbiochem]

Today we are picking up my grandpa from the hospital. There is no more they can do for him. He will dye at home like he wants and he is tired of hospitals

You know my experience with the matter...

It's a better end or as good as he can get it given what his illness is...family, love and nothing more...

[southbiochem]

I lost all my course notes in the train. Shit.

Oh that sucks!...


Anyway...today is "fuck-the-world-stay-in-bed-day"...I don't even want to eat..

[MisterTinkles]

I also have to add, that if this dipshit "teacher" had any professionalism what-so-ever, he would know that its not what in your mouth that counts, but your talent.

[mbennet35]

My grandpas organs are starting to fail. They have him set up here and have morphine. He is no longer responisive.

[dfiant1]

I hope he is at peace and I hope it is quick.

My thoughts are with you and your family x

[Miles]

My grandpas organs are starting to fail. They have him set up here and have morphine. He is no longer responisive.

[sillyboy86]

I'm ok but anxious.

Yesterday I did a job interview and was ok, on monday I will have a second interview with a trial or something, and I'm sure that I will be ok etc, but I'm not sure about the job, I have to see, uff... The biggest problem is: Is this job OTE? I don't think I can afford an OTE, but I've also finished my time... Anxious

[MisterTinkles]

I am sorry to hear that.

They say people still have consciousness when sick or dying. Tell him how you feel and you will miss him and to be sure and look out for you.

He will hear you.

He knows you love him.


(((((((HUGZ)))))))

[Lilitu]

I'm not feeling too well today. I've kind of been having weird mood swings and loss of appetite after that extraction and I don't know why. I was fine yesterday but I felt the same as I feel today the day before that. I havent been able to eat anything today except a cup of yoghurt.