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MickTheMousie Wrote:Aaaaand back to feeling like a piece of shit
"Life is a rollercoaster" is an overused phrase, but it describes the highs and lows of life quite well. Hope you feel better soon and reach another high point Mick
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Still a wee bit drugged. Where did the rain go? :confused:
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A lil miffed that I take the time for people and a lot of peoples don't reciprocate.
Like damn, ask a question bitch.
But I'm otherwise fabulous. Not too much Drama this weekend and a lot of things seem to be looking skyward :/
In that 2016 success Mode. Fuck all the extra curricular shit :*-*:
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Alone, lonely, sad, pathetic, single, wish i was dead, cant be bothered anymore, fed up, want to go away, feel like running away, fucked off, tired and more, worthless, used, not worthy so please unfriend me on here people, its pointless me being here
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starlight Wrote:Alone, lonely, sad, pathetic, single, wish i was dead, cant be bothered anymore, fed up, want to go away, feel like running away, fucked off, tired and more, worthless, used, not worthy so please unfriend me on here people, its pointless me being here Dennis, will you do me a favor? Try to look at these feelings you're having. I've known you for quite a long time now. You're having another episode. I've seen you cycle through this several (I don't know how many) times. You get in this state, commit 'suicide' by burning your social-network bridge -- and then at some point you feel a bit better. You begin to reconstruct it again.
So I would appreciate it if you would just LOOK at it and try not to *believe* all the thoughts and feelings going on inside you *as accurate descriptions of the way things really are.*
I'm not saying you are delusional. Yes, life sucks in a lot of ways. But as we've discussed, a lot of it has to do with how you look at it. How you relate to it. What you put into it. Yes, you're right, people shouldn't be fucking with you (emotionally) but people do that to one another. That's just another fact of like like the fact that we can't grow wings and fly.
These thoughts and feelings are chemical reactions going on in your brain. They are ignited by stuff in the real world but then they take on a life ... and an extreme intensity ... that isn't apart of actual reality. Yes, you FEEL this way... but that's just it. It's just a "feeling".. and feelings are brain chemistry.
Try to NOT take it so seriously!
I say this as someone who has gone through this. Not as bad as yours, but damn bad enough. Bad enough that I, too, wanted to kill myself and all the rest of it. But we have to learn to look at this intense shit from the outside. Yes, it is "in" us but we don't HAVE to be "in" it. It is possible to separate one's self from it.. .at least a little... and put it in perspective. That takes some effort on our part. Everyone here is willing to help. Well, I'd say most everyone here.. .can't speak for everybody.
But, unfortunately, as you know, no matter what we say or do, the bottom line is you have to work at it. None of us CAN fix it... even if we want to.
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Starlight, please read what Mike has to say and take it seriously. I have felt everything you describe and have somehow gotten past it to living my own life. It wasn't easy and not every day is easy now, but you can beat this. Those of us who have beaten it know how hard it is, but it can happen.
You have got to get help. Close at home, not on the internet. You have got to do it for your own sake. Then please tell us that you are winning. We want to know.
I bid NO Trump!
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Nervous. I'm need to check my emails but I'm scared in case there are emails telling me to do stuff or scolding me for not having done stuff. That probably seems like an overreaction but getting emails / phone calls is scary. I'm scared of conflict / confrontation, especially from people in authority. For example, I always hated that episode of The Simpsons where Bart got caught shoplifting. It stressed me out.
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well 10 minutes before the end of my shift early hours this morning one of my machines crashed on me - took me and six engineers and 6 hangers on to get it fired back up = did a thirteen hour shift lol = having a great time now playing music and learning bass guitar lines ... had a good time walking my dogs with my friends Alsatians too ...not bad for 3.5 hours sleep
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