How are you today?

[Sylph]

Super exhausted;

Mostly from dancing tho; whilst cleaning the house, I got a lil too carried away and found myself wining de bumpa pon de ground gurls x.x


Kinda wishing there was a guy here I could dance on/with, but i must focus on getting settled into my new jobs first!

No men until then!

[matty7]

I saw something that hurt me alot a few days ago, it made me so upset i felt i was having a panic attack on the way, it made me cry alot and hurt me again deep inside. Along with generally feeling alone more than ever i have had to do over time at work, 14 hour shifts in one full day, then a 8 and then a 10 hour shift. I finally had a actual meal today. Nothing is changing in my life and i am sick of people saying it will and things take time. Thats coming from people who do not know what it is like to have never been in a relationship. The advice people usually say is like a prostitute telling a virgin sex isnt all that, when all they want is someone to hold them. I got tears writing this so it shows that thing is still hurting me.

well I know first had working lots of hours is mentally draining and so your more likely to feel the impact of something upsetting even more deeply than if your fully rested - the trouble with people in a relationship is the majority are generally very happy and they are quick to give advice and cant understand why you cant be as happy as them = its not their fault and they are only trying to help so try not to be too harsh on them - ive got not magic wand myself so im not gonna bull shit you ,only thing I will say is that ive read your posts before and I do see that at some point you do come out of your dark days and give positive posts...just remember you do wake up happier eventually...not that it helps right now I guess

[starlight]

well I know first had working lots of hours is mentally draining and so your more likely to feel the impact of something upsetting even more deeply than if your fully rested - the trouble with people in a relationship is the majority are generally very happy and they are quick to give advice and cant understand why you cant be as happy as them = its not their fault and they are only trying to help so try not to be too harsh on them - ive got not magic wand myself so im not gonna bull shit you ,only thing I will say is that ive read your posts before and I do see that at some point you do come out of your dark days and give positive posts...just remember you do wake up happier eventually...not that it helps right now I guess

All this stuff is with me on a daily basis, i am not a happy person at all, i cant cover it up anymore i really cant i try so hard and i am just totally failing at life. I know i wont ever be happy, no matter what i do or dont do, i get told oh Dennis be you and you only and then i get mimicked and picked up on how i am. People think i am this happy go lucky person always smiling and helping people when really im dying inside. Thanks for you words though appreciated

[matty7]

hypothetically - im very happy here playing my favourite hard core crossover band Dirty Rotten Imbeciles - just wondering if I wasn't so into extreme music and dressing the way I have in the past would I have a bf right now ? Its a bit late to care now but just wondered if having a Mohawk etc just puts people off from even talking to you as a person ? I cant change now I guess anyway lol

[starlight]

Feeling a lot lighter and like i have released stress

[Sylph]

Ohhh~~~~ T-T

I had to give up my first job, because the hours were conflicting with my second job I'm about to start a d the second job pays more.

But oh well.

I'll hopefully find another job to work on the side so I can hopefully get myself a vehicle this year or next, because I'm tired of walking and sweating and catching busses and shuttles.


I'm getting old bitches!

[starlight]

Facebook is annoying and people i have tried to reconnect with have shit on me, ignorant people oh well i give up on people. I mean i even got blocked on Tinder, i must be ugly, oh well ill withdraw from most things soon,

[Emiliano]

Wondering wtf goes on in some peoples heads.

[Sylph]

Starting my job on Monday and I'm just going crazy this weekend

No drinking for me, but I sure as hell am dancing like if I was lol!!

Giving my imaginary audience the show of their entire liiiiiives ♡

[Insertnamehere]

Tired tired tired tired tired tired....

why is it Sunday afternoon already