Today on my flight back to Spain, a flight attendant was totally checking me out. :p He pulled a few innocent stunts in order to talk to me one-on-one. He slipped me his Facebook and stuff. I was flattered at the beginning of the flight, but possibly due to my terrible nap and jetlag, I had "left the building" by the end of the flight.
Later tonight I stumbled (by coincidence) on a bunch of his raunchy Porno photos online! O_o it was weird to see my flight attendant playing with his huge hard-on. He is no-longer my type. :p I have a boyfriend anyway (and according to his profile, so does he). Oh, the lives of the gays. Never a dull moment.
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So your flight attendant just happened to also be a porn star? LOL
Wow, that's some coincidence.
Today was just blehh.
Couldn't sleep last night, ended up not being able to wake up to go to school again. I didn't even feel to. Could I be suffering from depression? =S
Overall it's been a pretty boring day, tomorrow is gonna suck as I have to go to school and I could just imagine the rumors going around as to why I've missed so much school. >_>
Oh well, I'm sure some will be hilariously wrong.
And oh joy, I think I just heard my brother come home. I'm about to have a heart attack.
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You'll be OK Tux... you'll be ok.
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I feel kind of obnoxious for constantly posting on this thread. My apology. This would be the last one for a while.
I originally wanted to put a relationship on hold. I wanted to clear my surgery first before forming a relationship with someone.
I was also scared. I formed an insecurity through my injured leg. I thought that my leg would scare guys off. But I forgot that not all guys are shallow. I also learned to accept my leg and just say, "Fu** off if you can't accept me as who I am." Imperfection is a matter of fact is perfect and also beautiful.
But anyway after listening to a lot of advice from my friends in the real world and also from GS, I decided that it doesn't hurt to do a warm up now.
I don't want to lose my chance to have either my first crush or Mr Wink. Or others.
I will allow myself to be more extra open to my first crush, Mr Wink and other guys starting from next Monday. I'm ready to give them more intimate physical contact in a non slutty way. By all means more hugs, soft punch etc.
I confess that I really hope to have my first crush as my lover. I sincerely want him more than just a good friend and a brother. He really captures my heart. I feel really comfortable when I'm around him. Heck, I have no problem chatting private and personal stuff with him. He does make me confused though as I thought he has already been taken by someone else. I'll live if he is truly taken.
I'll give a fair treatment to Mr Wink as I'm giving to my first crush. There are a lot things that I need to learn about Mr Wink. Maybe it is Mr Wink who happens to be Mr Right after all and not my first crush. Who knows.
Maybe it is my first crush. Maybe it's Mr Wink. Maybe not them and maybe someone else. But whatever it is, I should try to embrace a relationship. Try and try again.
Oh yeah, another thing that I have learned from my first crush - Time to elevate myself to a new level again.
Okay that is all. End of my blab for this thread.
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Ok Jay I have only just read your latest post in this thread and I've no idea what exactly has happened to you, but nevertheless *big hugs*. Life provide you with what you open yourself up to.
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a nice day for me, Me and my brother stay together talk about futher
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Ahh, its nice to be back, and fun to see my little thread is still active.
Now if only it wasn't Wednesday... but rather Friday, I would be a happy little gay boy.
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