Ok fine you what I will shut up. I know I could make some exuse about me not having anyone to talk to about this in real life and me feeling lonely but I guess that is not valid. I am making everyone on here hate me because I can not control my emotions and keep it together. Damn it I can do it in real life why can't do it online? I don't complain in real life, I just bottle it all up like I am sure everyone else does. I never had any issues with me body or how I looked until I came out and had so many guys tell me that I was ugly and then after that I grew this consciousness that is obviously excessive. And why is everyone on here assuming that I am not doing anything about my problems and not fighting this? What I am posting on these forums here is only a dimension of who I am as a person and in real life I can not express any of these feelings or anxieties or else the same thing would happen in real life like it is here, everyone hating me. I have relied on myself and had no friends before for the majority of my life why is it now that I am feeling that I can't do this and that I need other people? I just have to shut up and find new ways to kill or neutralize me feelings because honestly I am afraid of this spilling over in real life too
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I apologize for being such a weak person. I used to not be like this, I used to not need friends and even though my parents were in large part negligent toward raising me I still rose up from what my enviroment was and got into university. Now that I am moving into being adult life is certainly is harder and more complicated to handle and in real life I have no one to fall back or rely on but it is no different from the past 20 years of my life why should everything be different now?
Why is it now that my mind seems to be rebelling on me and demanding that all of these inner anxieties need to be heard? Why can't my mind just uunderstand that expressing those feelings is just downright unacceptable? Well I have said all I could say and any horrible thing that anyone else would say about me here is well they are right I guess. I do not even know me anymore and I doubt if I ever did know who I truly am. I am sorry everyone.
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There are many valid points made but I liked dfiant's advice best which was short and to the point.
Brilliant! I suggest you read it again.
Nobody here hates you, we are trying to advise you.
You are far too sensitive!
The first thing you need to do is develop some self respect. Like yourself and others will like you too.
By all means if you think it is important, lose some weight and dress well?
But for me and I think many people, the important thing is personality. That is what you should concentrate on and when you are confident with that, everything else will follow. That just means being comfortable with who you are every day and not caring what other people think!
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There's nothing wrong with having a small endowment. Personally, I like to think of smaller guys as being more manageable, as in you can go down on them easier or bottoming won't hurt too much. Also, I think proportion matters more, shape is sexier than size in my opinion.
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Ok I get it. I shouldn't be concerned about this whole issue. That is good news cuz it takes some pressure of my back. I need to go and fix a lot of other more important things in my life right now anyways, things that have nothing to do with me being gay or anything that comes along with that.
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I have a tiny dick and that never stopped me.
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To me personally it's not very important honestly. Why should it matter, if you love the person then it won't.
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