Strange Situation

[Jason74]

For years and years I always thought that I was Gay exclusively and when I came out of the closet when I was like 22 years old I dated guys and just realized that I will always be attracted to other men and that was my main attraction. I have to admit at the same time I did get a bit turned on by lesbians, lipstick lesbians and I thought that was pretty hot.

Well I have been single for the last ten years and have not dated or even had sex with another guy and it just seemed that I lost interest overall. I mean I was still getting off to gay porn and stuff like that but I never wanted to be in a relationship.

Well I have been doing seasonal work where I work at summer resorts in the summer and ski resorts in the winter. Well this summer I started working at the Grand Canyon and as the summer went on I met someone and we hit it off and I was a shuttle driver so I got to see people all the time, well that person would flirt with me and I would flirt back and it eventually got to the point where one day after work we went on a hike and cuddled on a rock under the stars.

The thing that is crazy for me is that its a female and we get along great and we even have had sex and she is an amazing person and then I started to question my sexuality and I even eventually told her that I was drawn to guys for a good stretch of my life but it just doesn't compute why I am with her. Then it dawned on me that perhaps I am not gay or bi or straight and that I am just attracted to whoever I am attracted to. I am very much attracted to her and actually love her more than I have ever loved anyone.

She is the nicest person I have met in a very long time and she loves me as well which I find amazing and I guess I am just writing this because for so long I felt like I was gay but then realized that perhaps I am not and that I am just always searching for that person that I will hit it off with. Well anyway advice is cool and might be used and perhaps this is just a vent. Well anyway thanks

[Sensibility]

Wow, thanks for sharing. Wish I could add something to the discussion, but I feel like all I can really say is I'm happy you're discovering something new about yourself.

[deepu69]

No need to label yourself. Do whatever makes you happy.

[BlueStar]

We're happy with the ones we love, and sometimes it goes far beyond what we thought could ever happen. Often we state some relationship with someone as impossible at first, and then... here we are, with that person we used to hate/dislike/ignore, but who now means the world to us.

You can't force love, you can't fight it, all you can do is to embrace it when it comes. I'm sure you needed to get close to each other, after so many years of loneliness.

I'm very happy for you, she must be a rare special person who probably won't come twice in a lifetime. Have a warm journey

[bilkiba]

I too thought I was exclusively into men for a long time, and then fell for a woman. It happens sometimes that we just never see the kind of person that we'd be attracted to of a group and therefore don't realize we can be attracted to them.

[ceez]

Congrats on finding love, I always wonder if there are more bi people in the world that either didn't know it or wouldn't admit to it.

[ETOTE]

^not just bi....flexible, fluid...blah, blah, blah etc

Yet one more reason I so despise labels, too confining, restricting and limiting to possibilities that may otherwise never be considered since all too often so many people allow their label to think for them.

"well i'm straight, couldn't possibly be with someone of the same sex"
"being gay, i'm not suppose to be attracted to the opposite sex"

all social nonsense.

[high5]

Maybe you are pansexual... yeh another one of those label thingies, it means attraction to any person or individual regardless of their sex.
It's not the same as bisexual where the attraction is to both, pansexuals tend to be gender blind.
Cool post btw

[JimmyEcho]

PANSEXUAL,-- REALLY, O.K. Whatever.
What's next? Never mind, I'll go look on You Tube.

[JimmyEcho]

Oh Yeah, My Neighbor at the cook out the other night.
He is METROSEXUAL.