Im worried,should i do it?

[Lexington]

Exactly. And the problem is that another 'newbie' wrote basically the same story a week or so ago, but got tripped up on his own lies. From the outset, I could predict the outcome....the OP would go ahead with the meet-up and then post the details of the encounter....in a lurid wall of text that read like something from Nifty...not something that an inexperienced 16 year old would write.

Hey, I wonder if I still have that picture...

Lex

[Hardheaded1]

I figure we are the test audience for a would-be writer. We should have been provided stranded pearls to clutch by the props department..

[Alex977]

People here...i already said i wrote 17 cause i would feel stupid writing 16,cause im like turning 17 in few days.I said i made a mistake when i opened thread and i said i put im 18yo by mistake.Why would i do that,if i clearly set my birth date on my profile which is 20. december.
Also,i understand you people are angry,cause you all think i did a stupid thing,and that you hate men like that.Also,sorry for saying moaned,but i really moaned,i didn't scream,i just moaned,and i didn't do it on purpose,moans just came out of my mouth when i was turning in bed.I was turning in bed i was grabing sheets and clenching edges of bed and clenching my fists out of that weird pain.Also i cried out,i don't know how to translate it.I like pleaded with crying sound.Like girls in japanese porn.Sorry i don't know how to describe it in other way.I already said i wasn't an native english speaker.My dictionary consists from words of internet and games,i rarely interact with english talking people on internet.That's why my detailed desctription souded like that.I didn't know how to describe it other than that.
And now to talk about the subject.My anus doesn't hurt anymore,but my still feel weak,not as weak as before,but still weak.And when i walk i can like feel space in my anus,like the right and left side are rubbing each other when i walk.It's a numb feeling.I think i will go to doctor for my legs,cause they worry me a lot.I forgot to mention i also hear cracking sound from my hips and around them sometimes.But im afraid to go to doctor for my anus? Will it just stop on itself? It doesn't hurt,just that weird feeling.My country is more conservative than you think.I know doctor and nurses will give me the look,i mean embarasing cases like this often end up in newspapers,but anonymously
Otherwise,i don't feel shame anymore,i feel nothing.Im still under the impression of everything.I was thinking maybe im not gay at all,just was hungry for sexual experiences.But the problem is,when i remember whole ordeal in detail,i get an erection.I don't know why.I didn't have it when i was there.Only for a breef moment before it all began.

[Beaux]

I don't know why anyone encourages this by replying/being concerned. This is the same troll as the last 10 threads on gang rape, imo. Same storie, just (very) slightly different details...and of course the ever fluctuating age...
Troll.troll.troll.troll.troll.la.la.la.la,la....
~Beaux

[Hardheaded1]

It is very likely an interloper from another forum who was banned her two months ago.

[Alex977]

I don't know why anyone encourages this by replying/being concerned. This is the same troll as the last 10 threads on gang rape, imo. Same storie, just (very) slightly different details...and of course the ever fluctuating age...
Troll.troll.troll.troll.troll.la.la.la.la,la....
~Beaux

Im first time here,ffs.Where are those threads? I want to see them,show them to me! Where are they? Also i had my thread posted on Serbian forum,and people there dissed me in the start,saying im in idiot kid,and that i should kill myself.

[MikeW]

Im first time here,ffs.Where are those threads? I want to see them,show them to me! Where are they? Also i had my thread posted on Serbian forum,and people there dissed me in the start,saying im in idiot kid,and that i should kill myself.

Well you should definitely not kill yourself ffs. Whether you're an idiot or not, only time and further life decisions (hopefully better ones) will tell.

As for links... are you reading your own thread? One is posted on the previous page but so as to not waste YOUR time searching for them, here: https://gayspeak.com/showthread.php?t=34543

Alt version: https://gayspeak.com/showthread.php?t=34542

The above preceded by this one: https://gayspeak.com/showthread.php?p=515303

If you don't want to suspected as a troll, 1) don't give us the gory details (no one wants to hear your moaning) and b) tell us how you FEEL (emotions) about all this.

[Alex977]

I already said,i feel nothig,empty.I feel like im going to forget totally what happened.I already can't remember how it felt,cause it felt quite dull.I remember,but it's like i have nothing to remember.It's definitely not what i expected,i thought i would feel physical pleasure,but i only felt meat beating on meat.And anal sex was like i took a crap,but painful one,like hard stool.

[Alex977]

I saw those treads now,and they are quite different from mine.First was about a guy that said it was horrible.The second was short.If you think that sounds like me,i don;t know what to say...
Also i never said it was horrible,i exactly explained to you how i felt and how i feel now.It totally failed my expectations of sex.I imagined i would cum from pleasure alone.It was a a disapointment,im rethinking am i gay at all? But now as i said before,remembering whole ordeal i get erections,maybe i liked it in some way? I don't know,maybe subconsciously i was turned on by being humiliated? I forgot to say i watched a lot of straight ganbang porn,but then again,i watch a lot of diferent porn too :/

[Darius]

Im first time here,ffs.Where are those threads? I want to see them,show them to me! Where are they? Also i had my thread posted on Serbian forum,and people there dissed me in the start,saying im in idiot kid,and that i should kill myself.

First, don't kill yourself.

Second, you asked our opinion and while most told you not to do it, you had already decided you would do it no matter what. Now you found out we were right.

Third, the frst time I had full on sex I felt like I had been hit by a truck afterwards. It was a real work out. That is probably why your legs hurts. Take a hot bath and gt some sleep.

Forth, while I am typing this, I am watching a Serbian guy with a huge uncut cock jack off on cam4. His name is Tony Ward. Ha!