Making Things Right - Trying Again

[Taueg]

So I met a guy a while back on a hook up app (I'm gay) and we talked for ages and had great chemistry. When he disclosed his desire to meet, I freaked out and blocked his number a few months ago. Since then I haven't been able to shake the "What if..." in my head. At the time I had a temp job, and thought I didn't deserve a slightly older (9 years) successful guy who shared the same goals as me. I was worried what my friends and family would think of him and that I didn't deserve such happiness.

Since the moment I hit "block" on my phone I have been thinking it was a mistake. I deserve to be just as happy as the next person, who cares what my friends and family think... they aren't sleeping with him. I'm struggling with unblocking him and apologizing up the ass for my self-esteem issues. Hes a slightly bigger guy but I could give two craps about that, I'm smaller but no model myself... who was I to ever judge? Should I contact him, at least see if he will still entertain the thought of meeting me?

I'm not expecting a warm reception but he was one of the most legit guys I've ever met. I hate myself for possibly letting a good thing pass me by.

[ShiftyNJ]

I'd say call him and be honest. The worst thing he can do is say no; just be prepared for that possibility.

[Anocxu]

You blocked him because he wnted to meet you?