This is getting out of my control guys, now I am becoming a catfish. Help.
11-20-2015, 09:12 AM
Listen guys, I need your help again, I know I already submitted a thread talking about how I feel about my looks and the struggles that I have trying to get out with my friends but this situation is driving me crazy. I think it needs special attention. I want to keep the conversation in the other post of course, but it it's almost 03:00 a.m. here and I just can't sleep and I feel so down, I just need to spit this out.
As I said in the other post I have a crush on this guy at my job. I really have NO words to describe how he makes me feel: nervous, my heard beats like crazy, I forget about my problems, laboral stress, he makes me feel so relax. He is cute, so f**** cute, easy going, down to earth, smart, everything that I like In a man, gosh, I feel "stoned" not a cause his looks, I mean I look at him and just want to spend all night around his arms, just cuddling, watching a movie in a rainy day ( I love rainy days) I know it sounds crazy, I see hot guys every day and only feel this way around him.
SO WHAT'S THE PROBLEM?
I know since the very first time that I saw him that I have nooooooo f******* chance with a guy like that. I talked about him with my friends and they want me to get the confidence to start talking to him. But I didn't do that. I just wanted to know more about him so I managed to find his Instagram and Facebook profiles (both set as private) so since he have seen my face when we are having lunch at the cafeteria, I had to create a fake Instagram profile using pics of a hot guy that I have as friend on my real profile.
That was when things started to get crazy:
My friends almost stopped talking to me because they got angry because I didn't sent the friend request from my real profile.
He accpeted the invitation and started to like the pics of the guy of my fake profile and I like some pics of his profile too.
I also told another friend that at work about my crush on him and she yesterday sat just next to him, same table to have lunch and started a conversation with him. She told me that I should approach because he is so charming, easy going and open, they spent one hour talking so she got plenty of information for me.
She said that guy is everything but honestly my chances are pretty low because he is also very rich (he lives almost in a casttle) while I manage to have. A "decent life" and a lot of people are trying to catch him. But she said if I am smart I can get my goal. That I should try. She even had a plan in order to introduce me to him. I said NO. She said that I am so insecure and I fear a possible rejection (which is true) I'd rather stay way from him.
When I arrived home thinking about he and what my friend said and posted 3 pics of some song lyrics about having a crush on someone who doesn't know everything about you. (And he liked 2 of those pics ).
He likes the guy on my fake account, and the real me almost is invisible and now I am becoming a catfish. I feel no sad. That is the only way that I can have him, I know it's not the best way but what can I do if I am ugly and poor and he's too much and I'm nothing.
This sucks so hard.
As I said in the other post I have a crush on this guy at my job. I really have NO words to describe how he makes me feel: nervous, my heard beats like crazy, I forget about my problems, laboral stress, he makes me feel so relax. He is cute, so f**** cute, easy going, down to earth, smart, everything that I like In a man, gosh, I feel "stoned" not a cause his looks, I mean I look at him and just want to spend all night around his arms, just cuddling, watching a movie in a rainy day ( I love rainy days) I know it sounds crazy, I see hot guys every day and only feel this way around him.
SO WHAT'S THE PROBLEM?
I know since the very first time that I saw him that I have nooooooo f******* chance with a guy like that. I talked about him with my friends and they want me to get the confidence to start talking to him. But I didn't do that. I just wanted to know more about him so I managed to find his Instagram and Facebook profiles (both set as private) so since he have seen my face when we are having lunch at the cafeteria, I had to create a fake Instagram profile using pics of a hot guy that I have as friend on my real profile.
That was when things started to get crazy:
My friends almost stopped talking to me because they got angry because I didn't sent the friend request from my real profile.
He accpeted the invitation and started to like the pics of the guy of my fake profile and I like some pics of his profile too.
I also told another friend that at work about my crush on him and she yesterday sat just next to him, same table to have lunch and started a conversation with him. She told me that I should approach because he is so charming, easy going and open, they spent one hour talking so she got plenty of information for me.
She said that guy is everything but honestly my chances are pretty low because he is also very rich (he lives almost in a casttle) while I manage to have. A "decent life" and a lot of people are trying to catch him. But she said if I am smart I can get my goal. That I should try. She even had a plan in order to introduce me to him. I said NO. She said that I am so insecure and I fear a possible rejection (which is true) I'd rather stay way from him.
When I arrived home thinking about he and what my friend said and posted 3 pics of some song lyrics about having a crush on someone who doesn't know everything about you. (And he liked 2 of those pics ).
He likes the guy on my fake account, and the real me almost is invisible and now I am becoming a catfish. I feel no sad. That is the only way that I can have him, I know it's not the best way but what can I do if I am ugly and poor and he's too much and I'm nothing.
This sucks so hard.
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I can't fix that either.
Leo
I almost posted threads before as well. lol 
I also like rainy days as well. ^^ What your describing sounds like obsession hun, and it will only end up hurting you more especially sense it sounds like he doesn't return your feeling's. With respect you should let go and move on, it's his loss you are amazing. You will find that special someone who only see's you, and who will be there for you. Sometimes the road we have to travel is hard, but it makes reaching the other side all the better. Have hope, and were here for you at the very least. If there's any way I can help I'm here, even if it's just listening. 
