04-29-2009, 11:14 PM
Okay, around 14 I found out I was gay. After a few years I've come to terms with it myself, but not told many people, least not my family due to their religious beliefs.
But things have gotten a bit confusing. While I'm more sexually attracted to Men, recently I've started to notice women in that way more, and even developed really strong feelings for one (cue "awwww").
This has brought up old conflicts and now I'm beginning to wonder if I'm bisexual, or if my homosexuality was just a phase (if that's possible). This is a problem for me because now I'm afraid to start a relationship with this person because I'm not sure if I'm able to go through with sex if it comes up in the relationship. Not sure if this is the environment I live in, but when I've been with Men, in my gut I've always felt it wasn't right for me, especially since I cannot remember ever having romatic feelings for a man.
So, sorry if this is a long read, but I was hoping someone might be able to help me make sense of this.
But things have gotten a bit confusing. While I'm more sexually attracted to Men, recently I've started to notice women in that way more, and even developed really strong feelings for one (cue "awwww").
This has brought up old conflicts and now I'm beginning to wonder if I'm bisexual, or if my homosexuality was just a phase (if that's possible). This is a problem for me because now I'm afraid to start a relationship with this person because I'm not sure if I'm able to go through with sex if it comes up in the relationship. Not sure if this is the environment I live in, but when I've been with Men, in my gut I've always felt it wasn't right for me, especially since I cannot remember ever having romatic feelings for a man.
So, sorry if this is a long read, but I was hoping someone might be able to help me make sense of this.