Mum caught me on porn

[Jake]

I die a little when i read your posts...

:')

[Robertson]

:L:L jake, thats not me even typing the way i would on msn >> normally ah wid be typin lit this aeee aww mah pals n they wid underston me .... mustah been a skottish thing yev gottah love dislexia see the way i type the now is better

[Jake]

That's not a scottish thing...
it's a teen thing...

i hate it.

[Robertson]

excuse me jake.... i find fourTEEN is classed under the teen catagory, u should learn to speak like me :f..... IDOLIZE ME :o:o:o KIDDIN :p DONT ACTUALLY :|

[marshlander]

If Spotysocks wrote in Greek, princealbertofb in French, queer-python in Spanish and Lightshade in German, let alone all the other other native languages represented here, we'd never get any conversation going at all. Standard English, like it or not, just makes it the most logical compromise for mutual comprehension.

[XRIMO]

Grammar and language aside,

I remember when I was 13/14 when my parents got the internet, I and was curious about stuff. The internet wasn't as open as it is today and many sites had blocks on them to prevent minors from entering. Anyway, what few sites I could get on to look at the *ahem* naked male form, I was very diligent to cover my tracks by deleting internet history, removing cookies, and what ever I kept I put into a maze of folders upon folders that no one in their right mind would find...

Geez, I feel so geeky :tongue:

[mr_21]

Hi,

I think your mum sounds a lovely woman.

She probably deep down knows and i think you should confide in her if you think you are definately gay.

When i came out and told my mum we was in car coming home from shopping. Althou she was a little shocked i was suprised she never had any inclin. But as we was always together as we so close i think that why she did not recognise anything.

Althou when i did come out and my grandparents was told althou my dad did not still know at this time, they was fantastic about it including my mum. My grandparents said they always knew and was just waiting althou they never said anything to me or anyone else.

My biggest fear was my dad, being a mans man if you get me, i was worried, yet when i did tell him about a week after telling my mum and grandparents he was like "Ok, no problem then walked off". What shocked me was he was so good about it and did not think of me any differently, when i thought he would, what was even more shocking, he told my mum he always knew to and was just waiting for me to come out.

For years as from an early age i knew i was attracted to same sex, i was scared to come out etc, but it is not good keeping it in specially when you know you are definately gay. It made me quite depressed and down and constantly was thinking what if my family rejected me and so on.

The best thing i ever done was to come out, i felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulders and no longer had to be different on not be the real me, now i don't care what anyone thinks, my family accepted me and that is all that matters, althou everyone i know is fine. My brothers i was also concerned about as all their friends are straight and i thought people would start talking about my brothers as where i live people are just so not opene minded, well i say that only the youngsters tend to be. But my brothers was fine about it and there friends still says "alrite, hi" etc.

So my whole point of this is really telling you once you know you are gay is to come out, it won't do you any good as it it made me depressed for some time.

I think we think worry and think the worst yet when you come out you start to think, i cant beleive i kept it in so long and they are so understanding and good about it.

From what you say i think your mum knows and she is just wanting you to confess. Not saying this in a horrible way but as some are rejected by their family etc i think you should be grateful to have what i think sounds like a understanding mum, i mean from what you have said i think she will be very understanding and fine about it.

Wish you the best of luck and hope everything turns out ok for you. I think you will be much happier and not worry and care so much about hiding things and be sort of secretive.

[Robertson]

marshlander: i honestly do try my best to type in standard english, it just gets soo boaring some times iv spoke the same for 15 years, i just fancied a wee change

XRIMO: ah had been soo careful and then one day i just forgot, normally i would have had a programme to do it all for me ( im a self confessed computer geek) but ma trial had expired on widnow washer n a just couldnt wait to download it again i needed shall we say relief, and it was when i was first into the whole gay porn thing and i didnt no the best sites to go to :/ and some of the videos streamed through wmp, but its ok, nothings set to record on my computer now ....

And last but by no means least Mr_21: cheerz for the advice my only problem is at school, and with bullies and stuff like 4 years ago i had 2 friends to my name and i worked soo hard to get the friends bak and become popular and now i do have the friends and the respect, like just yesterday the most popular girl in the school invited me to her bday, this big for me, huge and if i was to come out to them i just dont no the reaction, like lewis we think hes gay, and it sometimes creeps up into conversation and all they boys are like al stop bein freinds waii um if he comes out to be gay. i just cant be doing with all that especially on top of the preassures of school ( 1 year to do 5 highers - or the equivilant of A levels) and i need to get the marks and go to Uni, i just cant come out

[mr_21]

I understand.

I did not come out until i left school, as i had very very bad experiences and would hate to here someone went through basically the torture i went through.

hence why i waited until i left school. The time will come for you when you will think it is rite. Until then i guess you have to put up with not telling anyone, but like i said time will come and it will be when you know and feel it is rite.

Best of luck, and good luck with your A levels etc.

[fjp999]

"Mum caught me on porn" could mean you were caught acting in porn :tongue: