My Life Part 1 (The Frustration)

[YoungPup]

Erm, This is a little awkward. I don't really do to much of this, but I'm going to be writing a series of poems on my life. Called (so creatively) My Life. I just want to get this all out and off of my chest.

I didn't feel this way at first the beginning was so easy, I just left

But now I feel like I need you I cry so hard it takes away my breath
I push myself farther and farther away hoping that one day I won't need you
You see you were my drug and I was yours but there was a difference: I didn't beat you
I stood there and took it choking back tears until I fell down then I curled up
All I would say was stop with bruises forming, a whisper, feelings numb and closed up
After a while you would get tired and leave and I would wonder about my wrong
What did I do? What did I say? Then I would cry all night long
In the morning you would say "I love you" like nothing happened at all
I knew if anyone asked to say I just took a fall
I pleased you, made you laugh, cooked dinner and lunch
We would go pretty long without me ever feeling a punch
But then one little thing would set you off
And then I'd get it again like it got you off

When I finally got fed up I left nonchalantly
Your demons came back as you started your destruction and ranting
I ran out and to a friends and cried forever tears of fear
Would dream horrible nightmares because I knew you were so near
Nobody really believed me because I lied about it so well
I would purposefully drop dishes at work, act like I slipped and fell
I was a klutz and an airhead to my closest friends, they didn't know
And I kept my terror behind a smile refusing to let it show

[Dark Angel]

wow, loved it man should make a book of al the series you make

[YoungPup]

I may, I don't know. Some of it's kind of personal. And I would probably freak out if my ex found out.

[libertylove4]

[COLOR="Navy"]Wow that is really powerful....you are a really good writer.

They say the best writers have had traumatic experiences...so maybe you could turn yours into a bestselling novel or book of poetry and make lots of money [/COLOR]

[Dark Angel]

Puppy your really amazing at doing poetry, its outstanding. thoguht i'd make a second post on this just to show how awesome it is

[peterinmalaga]

I'm not really into poetry but this is strong stuff in any genre. I think I can understand how hard it must have been to write this if there is anything more than a trace of autobiography in it. I just hope your life was/is not all quite as bad as it seems here. An abusive relationship does so much harm but still it is relationship and the abused person finds it hard to end it, I'm sure. Please tell me the poem is not about you. I haven't said welcome yet, so welcome, bienvenu, willkommen, bienvenido, benvenuto! And I hope you like my pups too.

[YoungPup]

Hmm well it is. I tend to not talk about my life. It seems easier just to put it in poetry form. I tend to hide myself in my poems.

[marshlander]

...I tend to hide myself in my poems.

Not very effectively I can see you clearly.

Very powerful, very articulate. Would you consider putting your poems into a single thread so we can see them in one place as you add to them, please?

[Rychard the Lionheart]

Good to see more good poets here. As Marsh suggested keep it in same thread, my mistake first time posting. Re the BF we won't tell him.

[fjp999]

[COLOR="Purple"]Fantastic writing. I hope it was as good for you as for me, hehehe.

It reminded me of how much I love this site and the family I have developed on here.

Not sure who will come to GS for the long run or the short for what one wants... but it seems we have a very positive little group here.

I dont know what I have added to the site but I can tell you, well I wont go into any details BUT there are a few here who have helped me thru some of the darkest times in my life. UGH, even when I post as Anonymous someone often times figures it out and PMs me or even phones asking if I am really ok.

UGH, I really love you guys

btw, keep posting your wonderful words all [/COLOR]