06-01-2011, 02:23 AM
So heres how it goes I guess. So once again My lesbian had introduce me to a guy. The difference between this time and last time is that this guy is AMAZING. He tried to buy my dinner and succeeded in buying me a 6 dollar beach leomonade. He also revealed that he has my taste in music, humor, and even gaming aperently. Plus hes bigger then me which is a hard thing to come by and i like that. so durring dinner on the way back from the bathroom i over hear him talking about my phone number and how He didnt want it from my lesbian but instead wanted it me to give it to him myself. So while in the car I put my number in his phone in an act of spontaneous hopeless flirting. Then we get back to my lesbians apartment and I dont think im allowed to describe the details but things went down between us. Before I could finish with him, he said "Come here you" and brought me up to...... cuddle with him.
I dont cuddle. Im not used to cuddling. Usually my sexual antics end in "Dont tell anyone now get out of my room" But he just cuddled me and kept saying "you are amazing" and "god your so beutifull". And he kissed me. not sexual tongue kisses either. like sweet little pecks on my forehead and neck. He even gave me a sweet little hug and kiss goodbye before he left.
But heres the trouble. I gave him my number. Against my better judgement i gave him my number. Ive done this before. Ive waited for weeks after giving a guy my number to find out they never intended to call me or even liked me. I was hurt the first few times. badly. But sadly ive gotten used to the feeling over the years. It didnt effect me anymore. months would pass and the guy would become a distant memory long before. Soon I had even given up on them actually using my number the second i gave it to them. I was content with forever being the one night stand, the fling, the dirty mistress as it were. Thats all anyone treated me like.
Its been 2 days and no text/call. But even though i had grown numb to it before, I find myself giving a shit. Why do I care? Why is it effecting me this much.? its only been a couple of days. Maybe hes doing that thing straight guys do all the time where you wait a certain amount of days so you dont seem desperate. In which case ill be pissed. I would like to know how many days that stupid rule suggests. maybe if I know that ill know how much longer ill be going crazy like this. I dont get it. Somehow he made me feel so great I actually care about this.:confused:
I dont cuddle. Im not used to cuddling. Usually my sexual antics end in "Dont tell anyone now get out of my room" But he just cuddled me and kept saying "you are amazing" and "god your so beutifull". And he kissed me. not sexual tongue kisses either. like sweet little pecks on my forehead and neck. He even gave me a sweet little hug and kiss goodbye before he left.
But heres the trouble. I gave him my number. Against my better judgement i gave him my number. Ive done this before. Ive waited for weeks after giving a guy my number to find out they never intended to call me or even liked me. I was hurt the first few times. badly. But sadly ive gotten used to the feeling over the years. It didnt effect me anymore. months would pass and the guy would become a distant memory long before. Soon I had even given up on them actually using my number the second i gave it to them. I was content with forever being the one night stand, the fling, the dirty mistress as it were. Thats all anyone treated me like.
Its been 2 days and no text/call. But even though i had grown numb to it before, I find myself giving a shit. Why do I care? Why is it effecting me this much.? its only been a couple of days. Maybe hes doing that thing straight guys do all the time where you wait a certain amount of days so you dont seem desperate. In which case ill be pissed. I would like to know how many days that stupid rule suggests. maybe if I know that ill know how much longer ill be going crazy like this. I dont get it. Somehow he made me feel so great I actually care about this.:confused: