You have all been so helpful and reassuring. I also spoke to him very recently and he reassured me very much, apparently there are many specific things about me that he likes that I never even thought about, and he does have some similar fears.
You gave me many great ideas, and I'm so appreciative of them. You must know that I've always been prone to anxiety and worry.
*Pellaz let me answer some of your questions.
I've already had my teeth professionally whitened.
He loves my cologne ( actually 3 vationations of the same cologne that I sometimes mix and match-or not) I only use a little bit so that he has to be close to me to smell it.
Going shopping together sounds like fun. We both like shopping.
For some reason, I'm really good with parents, I can usually charm them, his parents were no different when I accompanied him to see them in Maryland, his family seemed charmed by me and I like them.
I re-decorated his place for Christmas and he really liked that! (he decorated his place himself but did it all wrong, the wreaths were backwards, etc.)
He also loved the flowers I bought him, I found his favorites; purple cattlleya orchids.
I'd love to move in, but I don't want to smother him, I'd also like to help him with his expenses, but he likes to pay for things (I do have some money, just don't ask where I get it from-nothing illegal)
I'd move with him to Timbuktu if he wanted and take classes there. But we live in New York City where there are employers for the jobs we want.
All in all I'm slowly learning to enjoy what I have, it's just sometimes hard to reconcile the wonderful way that he treats me, with the horrible treatment I get from my family.
Thank you all.
Later.