I'm scared ...

[JRiver]

Personally I'm silty afraid of opening up to people and being close to someone, also I'm afraid of dying alone and being alone. Typical things a 21 year old lad should be worrying about lol

Silty, or still?

I recommend you examine the fear of opening up and being close to someone carefully, and weigh that fear against your fear of being alone. Which is the greater fear? How are these two fears in relation to one another? Where is desire in this? Which desire is larger and which smaller? Are they about the same size? Do these contrary desire/fear components act together to keeping you in stasis (inaction, stillness)? How does this feel? What other fears might be "hidden" in this stasis?