07-09-2012, 07:14 PM
I'm sorry if I posted this in the wrong thread but I'm desperate for help.
I'm a 21 yr/o straight man that got very drunk and recieved oral from a gay man.
I'll tell you the story from the beginning. My mate came back from army camp, and he phoned a bunch of us to come out clubbing. We proceeded to get very, VERY drunk that night, it was about 1am in the morning that I decided to shoot off home. I was going to get a taxi but I realised that I had no money. A man nearby noticed this, (he was extremely camp) and he came over to me and said he'll give me some money for the taxi but I'll have to come with him for a pint first. I was really drunk and it was raining terribly that night so I reluctanctly agreed. We had our pint in a nearby pub, people around us were giving us dodgy looks. That last pint really knocked me over the edge, he took me to a taxi rank and we both went into the taxi. I just thought he wanted to go home too so I didn't say anything. We didn't speak in the taxi for the whole ride.
Soon we arrived at a part of town that I didn't recognise, he took me into his house and put me down on the sofa. From this point my memory becomes muddy, but I definately do remember him giving me oral. Then we both fell asleep. I woke up at 6:30am to find him masturbating over me. Looking back at this I feel really disturbed and violated. (I'm really cringing as I type this). I just pushed him off me and he looked a bit confused at this. I got off the bed and put my clothes on, I told him I was going to the toilet. He just looked at me and handed me 20 pounds. I was seriously confused at this point I was thinking "What the fuck is going on?! This can't be happening." I just ran out of the house. I did a fast walk towards the nearest bus stop to get back home. I had tears in my eyes on the ride home but I covered them so the other passengers didn't see.
Since then he kept calling me and texting me telling me he wants to take me shopping. I repeatably told him "no, I don't want to see you again" but he just kept texting me. He wouldn't take no for an answer. He told me he'll give me 40 pounds if I come to his house a couple of days later. I went mad at him over the phone telling him not to contact me anymore EVER!! He just replied back with "Hmmm" and I haven't heard from him since.
This was only 4-5 days ago and I haven't slept properly since. (I only had maybe 6 hours sleep in 4 days) I feel so violated and disgusted. I never took any interest in gay men, ever.
Please, what can I do to help myself stop feeling like this. I'm too ashamed to talk to anyone else about this. I've never felt so alone and isolated. I'm extremely terrified of the people in my town finding out about this. (It's a small town, news gets around very fast. And it's extremely stereotypical.) I cried twice since it happened and I never cry. Please help me.
I've got nothing against gay/lesbians/transexuals at all. My cousin is gay. Please don't think I'm trolling you.
I'm a 21 yr/o straight man that got very drunk and recieved oral from a gay man.
I'll tell you the story from the beginning. My mate came back from army camp, and he phoned a bunch of us to come out clubbing. We proceeded to get very, VERY drunk that night, it was about 1am in the morning that I decided to shoot off home. I was going to get a taxi but I realised that I had no money. A man nearby noticed this, (he was extremely camp) and he came over to me and said he'll give me some money for the taxi but I'll have to come with him for a pint first. I was really drunk and it was raining terribly that night so I reluctanctly agreed. We had our pint in a nearby pub, people around us were giving us dodgy looks. That last pint really knocked me over the edge, he took me to a taxi rank and we both went into the taxi. I just thought he wanted to go home too so I didn't say anything. We didn't speak in the taxi for the whole ride.
Soon we arrived at a part of town that I didn't recognise, he took me into his house and put me down on the sofa. From this point my memory becomes muddy, but I definately do remember him giving me oral. Then we both fell asleep. I woke up at 6:30am to find him masturbating over me. Looking back at this I feel really disturbed and violated. (I'm really cringing as I type this). I just pushed him off me and he looked a bit confused at this. I got off the bed and put my clothes on, I told him I was going to the toilet. He just looked at me and handed me 20 pounds. I was seriously confused at this point I was thinking "What the fuck is going on?! This can't be happening." I just ran out of the house. I did a fast walk towards the nearest bus stop to get back home. I had tears in my eyes on the ride home but I covered them so the other passengers didn't see.
Since then he kept calling me and texting me telling me he wants to take me shopping. I repeatably told him "no, I don't want to see you again" but he just kept texting me. He wouldn't take no for an answer. He told me he'll give me 40 pounds if I come to his house a couple of days later. I went mad at him over the phone telling him not to contact me anymore EVER!! He just replied back with "Hmmm" and I haven't heard from him since.
This was only 4-5 days ago and I haven't slept properly since. (I only had maybe 6 hours sleep in 4 days) I feel so violated and disgusted. I never took any interest in gay men, ever.
Please, what can I do to help myself stop feeling like this. I'm too ashamed to talk to anyone else about this. I've never felt so alone and isolated. I'm extremely terrified of the people in my town finding out about this. (It's a small town, news gets around very fast. And it's extremely stereotypical.) I cried twice since it happened and I never cry. Please help me.
I've got nothing against gay/lesbians/transexuals at all. My cousin is gay. Please don't think I'm trolling you.