02-03-2013, 10:56 PM
Hi I'm Ant and I'm 25 years old and I haven't properly come out yet! I told a couple of people a few years ago from work, but they have since moved away and I rarely see them. It was a great feeling when I did tell them, but that feeling didn't last long. Even now, on the odd occassion that we meet up I still feel very uncomfortable although they know I'm gay! I thought that if I told them that they would be the people I would feel confident around and be able to talk to, but I don't! That worries me that even when I told people, I still didn't feel ok.I'm begining to think that I'm my own worst enemy!
I've recently moved from a small town to a city (with work) and I thought it would be a great oppotunity, but it hasn't gone well. In the past 2 months I'm not managed to make any new friends. My biggest problem is my lack of confidence, I don't feel like I can leave the house at times! I have a few friends where I use to live but no close/best friend. Over the years I'm not tried very hard to keep hold of the friendshis that I had. I think it was the fear of people finding out.
I have for a long time felt very low and recently it seems to be getting worst! I feel depressed everyday, I don't have the motivation that I use to for my job and everyday seems to be a big struggle. In the past year I have also began to with draw from my family (which they have noticed). I don't know why but I just don't want to see them and I kind of have a lot of anger and rage towards them and that just isn't me! We use to be so close.
I have rambled a bit there, but I could have written all night. I'm just after a bit of advice/support. Will my nightmare ever end?
Thanks
I've recently moved from a small town to a city (with work) and I thought it would be a great oppotunity, but it hasn't gone well. In the past 2 months I'm not managed to make any new friends. My biggest problem is my lack of confidence, I don't feel like I can leave the house at times! I have a few friends where I use to live but no close/best friend. Over the years I'm not tried very hard to keep hold of the friendshis that I had. I think it was the fear of people finding out.
I have for a long time felt very low and recently it seems to be getting worst! I feel depressed everyday, I don't have the motivation that I use to for my job and everyday seems to be a big struggle. In the past year I have also began to with draw from my family (which they have noticed). I don't know why but I just don't want to see them and I kind of have a lot of anger and rage towards them and that just isn't me! We use to be so close.
I have rambled a bit there, but I could have written all night. I'm just after a bit of advice/support. Will my nightmare ever end?
Thanks