Penis Size

[Sylph]

Priapus is Roman though right? Not Greek

Regardless gurl, big penises can also be seen as gross and a hindurance.

I mean, unless you plan to be on bottom forever, having a giant eye poker, that can easily excavate your partner's innards, can sometimes be a problem.

No one will let you fuck them, if you can remove their stomachs...we kinda need it :I

[Drkmcnamara]

With your birthday coming up why not plan a gift to yourself. Less "you" and more "others"? Research local LGBT resources, find a social function organized just for LGBT support and attend or become involved.

If no one else knows you intimately as you've portrayed here then nobody will have a chance to either challenge your self-imposed barriers/excuses or support you through your quest to heal some of your "brokenness" and chart a course toward a happier, healthier you.

My main point is that what I see you doing is an attempt to hold a premise that you can change or fix yourself alone. That, my friend, is the antithesis of the relationshipping you crave.

I feel like I have to fix myself alone because no one is going to want to help me or be around me until I feel like I can get it all together and start living and thinking like a normal person. I keep doing it even knowing that because I have aspergers that I am by nature a different person and that my own estimation of me I will always be broken. Bascially what I am saying is that I am a freak, people don't like freaks, I bend over backwards to learn how to not be a freak but of course I can not hide everything. At my core that is what is wrong, I feel like a freak, even though I have mitigated a lot of my difficulties through a lot of work I still feel like because I have aspergers that I am already a person that is predisposed to be seen as less than a human being and having other problems such as a small penis just makes me well, pretty much one of the least desireable people in the world. Look at me I am a retarded, special needs person with a fat body, small endowment and now a depressed non-functional mind. Who would want a person like that huh? I am not even a real person, I am like some alien, I clearly don't belong here.

[Drkmcnamara]

Yea I just need to find of create some attractive things about me so that I won't look like freaky, unloveable piece of junk that I know I am.

[Sylph]

Yea I just need to find of create some attractive things about me so that I won't look like freaky, unloveable piece of junk that I know I am.

Poor you gurl. I think you look and are fine. Just drop the Melancholy "woe-is-me" act :p .

Have some higher self esteem and self worth bitch, don't make yourself someone your not, just to settle for less.

Have some standards, meet them and then keep them up. You're not junk or worthless.

I'm not perfect ,neither is anyone for that matter, just be the best you, you can be
:hugs-and-kisses-smi

[Drkmcnamara]

It is not an act thank you, an act would imply that I am not being genuine about expressing how I really feel and believe me when I say that I am expressing what I am feeling acurately. It would be an act if I told everyone that I felt like I was superman when in fact I feel like I am a very unloveable person

[ChadCoxRox]

I feel like I have to fix myself alone because no one is going to want to help me or be around me until I feel like I can get it all together and start living and thinking like a normal person. I keep doing it even knowing that because I have aspergers that I am by nature a different person and that my own estimation of me I will always be broken. Bascially what I am saying is that I am a freak, people don't like freaks, I bend over backwards to learn how to not be a freak but of course I can not hide everything. At my core that is what is wrong, I feel like a freak, even though I have mitigated a lot of my difficulties through a lot of work I still feel like because I have aspergers that I am already a person that is predisposed to be seen as less than a human being and having other problems such as a small penis just makes me well, pretty much one of the least desireable people in the world. Look at me I am a retarded, special needs person with a fat body, small endowment and now a depressed non-functional mind. Who would want a person like that huh? I am not even a real person, I am like some alien, I clearly don't belong here.

Well you sound much meaner to you than I would be. What an offensive impression you have. Listen closely. At 21 years of age you have not lived and matured enough to claim such knowledge and understanding as you assert. I can confidently assure you that your largest issue is isolation and lack of sufficient second and third party perspective to channel your own bullshit into something more manageable and constructive. Aspies are only on the mild end of the spectrum. Join in on the local Special Olympics and reach out to more severe cases of the disorder and you'll quickly find your path to such channeling as I describe. Your intelligence is no good if not disciplined. Left to wreck havok on your own soul as you clearly are doing is beyond self loathing, it's on the path to psychosis. You can help yourself but NOT alone. Don't be a total chicken shit to challenging your own misconceptions. I will deliberately come back to see how it plays out. You can't be alone with this crap here on GS. Pour it out and be fair enough to take it in baby!

[Drkmcnamara]

Well you sound much meaner to you than I would be. What an offensive impression you have. Listen closely. At 21 years of age you have not lived and matured enough to claim such knowledge and understanding as you assert. I can confidently assure you that your largest issue is isolation and lack of sufficient second and third party perspective to channel your own bullshit into something more manageable and constructive. Aspies are only on the mild end of the spectrum. Join in on the local Special Olympics and reach out to more severe cases of the disorder and you'll quickly find your path to such channeling as I describe. Your intelligence is no good if not disciplined. Left to wreck havok on your own soul as you clearly are doing is beyond self loathing, it's on the path to psychosis. You can help yourself but NOT alone. Don't be a total chicken shit to challenging your own misconceptions. I will deliberately come back to see how it plays out. You can't be alone with this crap here on GS. Pour it out and be fair enough to take it in baby!

What do you mean by pour it out? Are you trivializing what I am feeling by calling it crap?
I would love to break out of my isolation but honestly no one has the patience to really be that close to me irl.
Are you also saying that I am using my own intelligence against me and it is making me crazy?
This is not an exuse but I was treated real poorly by most people growing up and the exuse they made to justify what they did to make me feel so small is that I had aspergers.

[Drkmcnamara]

I have mananged to make a total fool of myself again, great Derek, I don't know what I am going to do with such an awful person as yourself. But at any rate I know that I must also punish myself whenever I make people mistakes.

[Bowyn Aerrow]

Roll with it Dark...

Look you are misreading what people are saying... I know you are hearing one voice, but most of us are talking at you in a different voice. None of us are saying your a bad man.

You are picking and choosing to hear bits and pieces. Go back, put it in context and try to understand that most of us here want to help but have nothing but a few pixels on a screen to reach out to you.

You have Aspergers - well that does explain a lot there. Its not bad and its not good - it just explains why it is you ain't seeing what people are really saying.

No need to punish yourself.... Seriously the world is harsh enough, we don't need to make ourselves miserable.

[Sylph]

It is not an act thank you, an act would imply that I am not being genuine about expressing how I really feel and believe me when I say that I am expressing what I am feeling acurately. It would be an act if I told everyone that I felt like I was superman when in fact I feel like I am a very unloveable person

Gurl, hold your tits for a second.

I wasn't trying to say your feelings are invalid or anything, and I wasn't trying to be mean, I just am very direct, now listen up sis, cause I'mma drop my titties on ya;

First of all; You are not the first gay to go through what you're going through, half if not all of the people on this site and the entire Triangular-shaped world of ours has problems, if not the same then similar as yours. And when they try to give advice, perk up them ears and listen bitch, cause it's a b-l-e-s-s-i-n-g.

It's not my place to say how you should feel, or that you shouldn't feel someway, I just think that you should try to see the good in yourself.

You really are a handsome man. Sure you may not be the hottest thing in the world, and neither am I, but you know what, you're worth a lot more than you're giving yourself credit for! And being physically attractive is not what you're making it seem, nearly everyone, everyone, has problems, so don't think because you don't attract every gay male within the 50mile radius of you, that there is something wrong with you.

Jay? The guy who posted a while back, he's been through his share of problems, and I remember them as he went through them and he wasn't one to complain and self-degrade, and from what I remember, it wasn't easy nor pretty for him.

Not to say your problems are less then his, but just to try and take a page from his book.

You may look at me and say "Oh he's not overweight, he's blah blahblah", but you know what, I have flaws about myself too. I have a real lisp and I'm legally blind in an eye. But besides now, have you ever seen me bring those things up? I rarely ever do.

Why make problems for yourself by berating yourself? Just love yourself gurl. I need a special permit to drive a car and can never operate most large machinery(not that I'd ever want to ew!), but so what? There's plenty of other things I can do, so what's the problem?



If nothing else from this; Just remember one thing.

It takes a lot to be yourself, when who you happen to be is someone a lot of ignorant bitches have a problem with.

If you already have problems with yourself, how can you ever hope to attract someone else? Not all gays judge by look you know. and I'm being dead serious.

If you want to talk with someone about some shit, I'll help when I'm available, but bitch, you've gotta stop resenting and hating yourself, it really ain't healthy.