Do I say my mind?

[CarGuy65]

SHOman, Congratulations on your coming out roll! Just be patient and see what your crush has to say next time you see him. If nothing else you may get a true good friend out of the situation although I hope for more for you.
As Memechose said above keep your expectations low although I hope for more for you. All the luck to you! Great story so far. Looking forward to the next installment.
And yes I do know what a SHO is. I remember when they were new on the dealer lots and I really wanted one ( I am real old!). There is actually a SHO owners club here in California I believe. Love the avatar.

[cunningluvr]

Congratulations. I'm glad it's working for you! This is a bit tangental to your situation, but I would have discovered men a lot sooner if any of my gay friends had shown the slightest bit of physicality - a lingering touch, a caress, a longer-than-hetero hug...now that I'm out to them, they've told me I projected my straight armor too well; jammed their gaydar. All I really needed was an opening. I love that you opened the door for your friend.

[SHOman93]

I can't thank everyone of you enough. You guys really don't understand how reassuring your advice was. You guys were the only real ones that could understand what I was going through. And even now that I can comfortably talk to my mom about this stuff (I already told her the whole story between Him and I and she started crying. She is so happy for me, being that I found someone I truly love. She also told me, she has had her fair share of non-mutual feelings with guys so, if he doesn't like me back, she knows how I feel) ,only you guys truly know how it feels. So all I have to do is wait till the next time I see him and tell him that I have feelings for him. I think I say along the lines of " Josh, the other day when I told you I was gay, I didn't tell you the whole story. Not only am I gay, I have feelings for you...." But, idk how it will go.

And CarGuy, My car was actually a 1 owner car before I bought it a couple of years ago. The original owner couldn't drive anymore and actually cried when we drove away in it and believe it or not, I'm only at 76k miles. Just hit 76k the other day!

[Camfer]

Good for you! Coming out to your crush and family too.

I think the ball's in C's court, and you telling him that you have feelings for him would probably just be the second case of obvious. He knows.

Hang out with him outside work, because maybe he just doesn't want to talk about this stuff at work. The fact that he gave you nothing back about himself probably means you're in the friend zone.

[SHOman93]

Thanks camfer. I will just wait and see how he is the next time I see him. If he seems normal then I might tell him. If he's uncomfortable then I won't pursue it any further. I just wish I wasn't stuck in the friend zone with him but there's nothing I can do if we don't both have feelings for each other.

P.s. what does "the ball is in C's court" mean? Lol

[Camfer]

In your dialogue you had yourself listed as M and him listed as C. So metaphorically speaking you hit the ball over the net to C, your crush, and you are now waiting eagerly to see how the game plays out. We'll look for your update over the weekend!

[LJay]

Amazing that this whole thing used to be symbolized/represented by a girl wearing pigtails and blue ribbons and in a pretty dress. She would pluck the petals off a daisy saying, "He loves me. He loves me not...."

[ETOTE]

so what happened with the Organia in his locker?

[SHOman93]

That totally makes sense, Camfer. I will be sure to at least post an update after I see him next. And ETOTE, I never really found out what happened when he found the bottle. It wasn't in there after I last saw him so he took it somewhere. I did however hear him ask another lifeguard, who he knew loved Organia, if she put that in his locker. She she said no, and then I heard him say "Well, that answers my question". Lol. So i think he knew I put it there.....

[Virge]

Hurrrrrrrrrrrray for SHOman!

Now just concentrate on developing a strong friendship with this guy and no matter what you'll have gained a life long friend.... in spite of the attractions. It make sense that his being so nice to you was his silent way of telling you he was cool with you just the way you are. Now do the same for him.