04-16-2010, 03:31 AM
here's the thing about my sexuality i like to think it has i mind of it's own. since i could remember i had always been a little feminine, i never really thought of myself as gay (i was too young to really know what it was) but i was always friendly with gay kids n stuff since i usually ended up in there social groups cause everybody talked about me alot and my mom always said "if somebody's gonna say you done something, do it." but alot of the things other people said did get to me. i was sensitive and emotional when i was a kid.
as i got into my teens i my attraction to guys grew but being that i hung out with pretty much all guys (and jocks) a very few girls i realized i had an attraction to girls to. but i don't know maybe because i hung out with all guys or maybe i was just way to obsessed with the gay or "what would it be like to be with a guy" issue (just like the rest of my friends) that i never really gave girls much thought or noticed much when they hit on me. so i came out to everyone at 16 and figured things out and liked who i was, but then i start having the same damn babble in my head again about girls.
i got lost my girl virginity finally at 17. but i think i like guys more i was for sure then but now i don't know am bi. cause i act gay most of the time and i still never notice when girls are in to me and my first thought is still eek. but some days i act more straight. people i don't want my sexuality to be a mood ring can you help me sorry this is so long.
as i got into my teens i my attraction to guys grew but being that i hung out with pretty much all guys (and jocks) a very few girls i realized i had an attraction to girls to. but i don't know maybe because i hung out with all guys or maybe i was just way to obsessed with the gay or "what would it be like to be with a guy" issue (just like the rest of my friends) that i never really gave girls much thought or noticed much when they hit on me. so i came out to everyone at 16 and figured things out and liked who i was, but then i start having the same damn babble in my head again about girls.
i got lost my girl virginity finally at 17. but i think i like guys more i was for sure then but now i don't know am bi. cause i act gay most of the time and i still never notice when girls are in to me and my first thought is still eek. but some days i act more straight. people i don't want my sexuality to be a mood ring can you help me sorry this is so long.