07-09-2011, 02:52 PM
It has been almost a year since I joined GS for the first time.
When I first came here, I am a curious gay boy in closet.
Now, I am turning 20 in one week. I just want to share some thoughts about how my perception for life has been changing for the past 1 year and update about my life for folks who know me here.
1. I am still single. I has never been in a gay relationship. I can't deny that I am desperate for one. But my perception about being single has changed. I am no longer blaming myself for not being in a relationship. I learn to accept myself for who I am. I learn the fact that I am a "catch". :biggrin: However, I still keep the old healthy habit of upgrading myself everyday. I still go to gym, learning new instrument, read more books, and smile more often.
I don't think that "my life suck" cause I don't have a relationship. Of course, I maybe happier with my life if I have someone to be there for me. But I don't need someone to be there for me to be happy.
2. I walked myself out of the closet. I have learned that real friends won't leave you just because you like boys. I came out to several friends. Most of them are very accepting. The ones who are not accepting are still my friends. I also made friends with some people who are really homophobic because of their religions. We spent hours and hours to debate about that topic. But in the end, I know they are my friends still and if something happen to me, I know they will be there. I learn that being opened minded and accepting means you have to accept that not everyone will accept you.
3. I am still facing discrimination. The discrimination is coming from the GLBT community itself. I get discriminated because I am not white. I get discriminated because I am comfortable with being who I am. However, I am no longer just sitting down and sucking it up. I am fighting back. I am starting students organization to spread out the liberal and accepting spirit on my university campus - a campus that if you are not white and male then you suck. I become more of myself, I learn how to show people that I am me, not my race, my sexual orientation, or my hair, my clothes.
I guess I was just bored when I wrote this. But that was some thought about how I view my life that I just want to randomly share.
When I first came here, I am a curious gay boy in closet.
Now, I am turning 20 in one week. I just want to share some thoughts about how my perception for life has been changing for the past 1 year and update about my life for folks who know me here.
1. I am still single. I has never been in a gay relationship. I can't deny that I am desperate for one. But my perception about being single has changed. I am no longer blaming myself for not being in a relationship. I learn to accept myself for who I am. I learn the fact that I am a "catch". :biggrin: However, I still keep the old healthy habit of upgrading myself everyday. I still go to gym, learning new instrument, read more books, and smile more often.
I don't think that "my life suck" cause I don't have a relationship. Of course, I maybe happier with my life if I have someone to be there for me. But I don't need someone to be there for me to be happy.
2. I walked myself out of the closet. I have learned that real friends won't leave you just because you like boys. I came out to several friends. Most of them are very accepting. The ones who are not accepting are still my friends. I also made friends with some people who are really homophobic because of their religions. We spent hours and hours to debate about that topic. But in the end, I know they are my friends still and if something happen to me, I know they will be there. I learn that being opened minded and accepting means you have to accept that not everyone will accept you.
3. I am still facing discrimination. The discrimination is coming from the GLBT community itself. I get discriminated because I am not white. I get discriminated because I am comfortable with being who I am. However, I am no longer just sitting down and sucking it up. I am fighting back. I am starting students organization to spread out the liberal and accepting spirit on my university campus - a campus that if you are not white and male then you suck. I become more of myself, I learn how to show people that I am me, not my race, my sexual orientation, or my hair, my clothes.
I guess I was just bored when I wrote this. But that was some thought about how I view my life that I just want to randomly share.
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