I've been having some depressing thoughts recently...

[TuxSky]

I'm kinda just venting, I don't need advice as these feelings will go soon I'm sure.

I've been told that this is a tad depressing so look away if you're happy.

This post is rather disjointed.

I was at a male friend's house recently and I was wondering if he'd want me over if he knew that I was gay. Or if his mother would let someone gay hang out with her son.

Some talk about my brother getting married happened recently and I thought about me not being able to properly get married and have people attend. And even if I could get married, who would attend if they saw two male names on the invitations?

I was wondering if my family was going to be ashamed of me or if I'll disappoint them. I could just imagine some of my neighbours gossiping ''You know they have a gay son?''. They'd probably use a much more offensive term of course.

I doubt I'll ever have children but maybe that's for the best since I'm sure they'd be teased about their ''daddies''.

I might not even be able to show affection to my partner in public because I'll be scared. That's if I even find a partner with the number of almost unlikable gays that I'm meeting. >_>
(Offline of course since I <3 you guys)

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So... yeah. I'm not usually this pessimistic, it must be the new school term's fault.
Anyone else ever had/having thoughts like this?