08-26-2013, 07:37 PM
I posted before that I'm starting to question my sexuality. As someone with zero romantic and intimate experiences, it's hard for me to really judge. In real life situations, I've never felt sexually or emotionally attracted to a guy before. In fact, the idea of getting it on with one of my guy friends makes me cringe. But I have felt some attractions to girls. I didn't really do anything about it though, just kinda watched them from afar....I'm too shy. >_>
But porn is a whole different story. Recently I've found myself actively searching for gay porn because, as much as I hate to admit it, gay porn excites me. It just feels like a whole new realm for me to explore. And as I'm watching two dudes go at it while having a massive hard on, I'm thinking "Okay...either there's some kind of weird psychological reasoning why or I'm actually bisexual." I say bisexual because there are other videos I enjoy watching a lot, and that's lesbian porn. Preferably lesbian porn without strap-ons or dildos. I guess when I'm watching girls, I suddenly hate phallic shaped objects (though to be fair, I'm usually not looking at guys' dicks in gay porn either). Oddly enough, it's actually the straight porn that I just haven't been into lately. When I'm watching straight porn, it takes me a lot longer to get excited than if I'm watching gay or lesbian porn which is almost instant. It didn't used to be this way though, I used to really like straight porn and it used to be all I watched. But maybe that's the problem, I've watched so much of it that there isn't much that I haven't seen already. It's gotten so...boring. I usually find ones with some bro douchebag doing a typical slut, hamming it up for the cameras. But with gay and lesbian porn (not always of course) the people seem more into each other and more genuine. Maybe it's not the sex that gets me excited, but the romance?
I don't know, I'm still really confused. I don't know how normal it is for a straight guy to have bi-curious feelings, well as far as porn goes.
But porn is a whole different story. Recently I've found myself actively searching for gay porn because, as much as I hate to admit it, gay porn excites me. It just feels like a whole new realm for me to explore. And as I'm watching two dudes go at it while having a massive hard on, I'm thinking "Okay...either there's some kind of weird psychological reasoning why or I'm actually bisexual." I say bisexual because there are other videos I enjoy watching a lot, and that's lesbian porn. Preferably lesbian porn without strap-ons or dildos. I guess when I'm watching girls, I suddenly hate phallic shaped objects (though to be fair, I'm usually not looking at guys' dicks in gay porn either). Oddly enough, it's actually the straight porn that I just haven't been into lately. When I'm watching straight porn, it takes me a lot longer to get excited than if I'm watching gay or lesbian porn which is almost instant. It didn't used to be this way though, I used to really like straight porn and it used to be all I watched. But maybe that's the problem, I've watched so much of it that there isn't much that I haven't seen already. It's gotten so...boring. I usually find ones with some bro douchebag doing a typical slut, hamming it up for the cameras. But with gay and lesbian porn (not always of course) the people seem more into each other and more genuine. Maybe it's not the sex that gets me excited, but the romance?
I don't know, I'm still really confused. I don't know how normal it is for a straight guy to have bi-curious feelings, well as far as porn goes.